Thankful.

Today I have a heart of thanks.... my emotions have been every which way today. Weird feelings.
I went to go babysit, and I got to paint a three yr old's toe nails. Then I got picked up by my sister (and cousin) and drove to my other cousins house which was on the way from Stacey's.
We arrived there, got all of the stuff packed in the truck, and I started the ignition, and started backing up. All the snowboards and crap was in the way, and the driveway was at a slant, and I drove right into the snow bank. I put the car into drive and tried to get out. Fail.
I hopped out of the car just bawling. I felt so awful.
They started to shovel me out, tried to move the car and nothing was happening. It was only getting worse.
My dad finally came up, the hook to the murano and the other side to the truck. Yes, the murano is lighter, smaller, and not strong looking- but it is powerful, four wheel drive, and a life saver. My cousin hopped in the truck and my dad in the murano and within an instant they were out of there- and didn't even hit the tree or nothing!
It was such a blessing to have family who supports me in my worst failures... and stupidities. My aunt was helping me feel so much better when I was crying and putting myself down.... my dad hugged me the moment he got there and it was ok. no one was upset, we still got to powder ridge, and no one was a dip stick. they were mature, sweet, and extremely willing to help. I am beyond thankful. I love my family.

Love,
Rebs

Wild Game!

I had a beautiful night with the Fraasch & Tappe Family (Tappe's are my grandpa's sisters side). It was a wonderful night. Cousins, aunts, uncles, second cousins, aunts once removed, uncles twice, grandma once removed..... it goes on.
It was so fun to watch a hockey game (yay)! and visit with family I never knew I had. Hilarious people all around. I was laughing all night.... eating like crazy and enjoying the suites that were bought out for us.
Also on the turbo cam I saw Kristen Galloway! I went downstairs and found her and visited with her family for a while, and then went back upstairs. The Wild lost 4-1 but the one goal we did get Nikki and I went CRAZY. It was so fun. Loved tonight.

Me and Kristen!

Me and Nichole!

I have silly cousins!!!

It's bound to happen....

You seem to be on this predictable cycle now.
It's maintaining your focus on one thing.
It's hanging out all the time.
It's solving their problems nonstop.
You seem to be on this predictable cycle now.
The world revolves around that person.
The person always has to have something wrong.
The problems don't end.
Your problem doesn't end.
You seem to be on this predictable cycle now.
There comes this point, though.
There is a time, though.
There's a point in the relationship, though.
You seem to be on this predictable cycle now.
When this person knows too much.
When this person doesn't have a problem anymore.
When someone else, problematic, comes along; "more alluring."
When it's easier to listen than speak.
You seem to be on this predictable cycle now.
You cut off the relationship before.
You leave the other broken.
You come up with excuses to stay away.
They know too much.
They don't have a problem.
Life is ok for them.
And you're gone.....
You've been on this predictable cycle for as long as I've known you.

Pride

On Sunday night I was at the Foty house.... hanging out, playing some games, and simply catching up. It was around 10:30 and I was up in Sunni's room figuring out her bluetooth... when I finished with that I decided it was time for me to go home. I went downstairs, put on my coat and then Asha asked if I could show her some tips about the Barnes and noble nook. I showed her some neat tips, and then Wendy and I just chatted it up. The topic of prayer for one another was brought up, and then she added a very thought provoking, heart moving statement said by her sister in law, "Rejecting someones request to pray for you is pride." That rocked my world.

*So many times we think we can do this life on our own. We reject when people ask to pray for us. We are prideful and that needs to change.

*If you're not comfortable sharing with someone don't be detailed. Tell them just to pray for you... that's seriously as simple as it has to be.

*Take advantage of the powerful work of prayer. People want to help you, me, her... Accept the kindness given to you.

I have been so convicted of this... honestly I am one of those people who shuts some people down for aking how they can pray for me. That attitude must change....They can only help me.

<3R

Feeling safe?

One of my all time favorite bands lately came out with a single on iTunes (their first EVER)!!!! I am absolutely in love with the song. Amazing.
There's a line, though, that goes a little something like this: "I wanna jump right in, right where we left off, I am not afraid, in fact I've never felt so safe...."

i am easily afraid of what will happen. i am afraid of what others will think of my past. i am afraid that i'll mess up the present. i have all of these fears of things that God has so beautifully created.... i am afraid of things that contain evil, and yet still may be in the beautiful path of my life. i am afraid.

i've been holding back to which is maybe a risk.... but maybe a risk worth taking.
am i truly living?
what is a life if you're not willing to risk. what is a life where you're worried all the time. what is a life without trusting, trusting God.

i'm sick of the life i was living.... in the middle. i'm going to jump back in. i'm going to trust and put my life back into the hands of my God... and feel safe again.

<3R

i am a disciple of jesus!!

a while back I was reading someone elses' blog, and it had a poem that I just fell in love with.
I printed it off and hung it up in my room.  it goes a little something like this....

I am a Disciple of Jesus

I am a part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have Holy Spirit Power, The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of His. I won't look back, let up, slow down, or back away.

My past is redeemed, my present makes sense. My future is secure.
I'm finished and done with low living, sight-walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotion, plaudits, or popularity.
I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His Presence, walk by patience, lift by prayer and labor by power

My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, by companions few, my Guide reliable, my mission clear.

I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won't give up, shut up, let up, until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, preached up, for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus!

I must go 'til He comes, give 'til I drop, preach 'til all know, and work 'til He stops me. And when He comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me; my banner will be clear.


...and there you have it. I am a disciple of jesus.

Sick & getting better.

Hello blogging world,

I had a horrible thing happen at the beginning of seventh hour yesterday.  I puked.  At school.

It seriously sucked... Anyway, I went down to the office to say that I was sick and needed to go home.  I called my mom, she picked me up, I got home, raced downstairs to just puke again.  I was so miserable.

I puked one other time within that hour span.  Seriously thought life couldn't get any worse.

I couldn't fall asleep because I had the most horrific chills, and I kept tossing and turning.  Finally I called my mom to get some medicine, and she rushed down stairs with some water, medicine, and calmed me down as I was in pain and chilly.  She gave me my medicine and I was out for about an hour.  I woke up and my dad came in with some applesauce which I couldn't keep down.  So after that whole situation I went to bed for the night... I had weird dreams & I couldn't stay asleep.  Weirdest night of my life.

I woke up at 7 to get some more water and medicine and then went back to sleep and woke up at 10 when my mom came in my room.  She had made me some chicken noodle soup (and took out the chicken), and made me eat up.  I was surprisingly hungry.  I ate that for both bfast and lunch.  I watched Dear John, did some homework, and relaxed.  

My plan as of now for tomorrow is sleep until 9ish, take a shower, and trot off to school.  We'll see how the night goes and everything, though.... I just have an hour and a half until I'm legit 24hrs puke/fever free! Thank the LORD.

<3 and peace.

My yogi tea bag does it again

Today was kind of... rough.

It was good until I got to bible, got my psat back, and found out that it didn't go well.  At all.

Does it count against me? No.  I was still upset though... telling myself over and over "you're stupid.  you're not good enough.  you're not going to pass the ACT."

I put myself in a place of self break down.  Tearing myself down, putting myself in a cranky mood and acting unmotivated.  Bad idea.

After school I put on my work out clothes and Kate and I headed down to the weight room, and we did our work out.

After the fact, I felt amazing.  I felt cranky free and I realized how much I needed to move on.

When I got home I got some tea out and looked at today's quote... totally fitting.

"Mantras you shouldn't say: I don't know; I'm not ready; I can't do it."

That really just topped the goodness on my day... I know God was up there saying "you can do it; you will be ready; you will know." I will get there... and it will be okay.

Happy Week to you!

Beautiful Sunday.

Today was quite the day.  I woke up, took a shower, headed out the door- Went to Starbucks and ran into an old friend, Lyssa.  Miss that girl! And we talked for a while.  I got my coffee, then I went and hung out with the little critters.  

After that I went to Cub and I saw a horrific accident on the way... so sad.  

I got the groceries needed and I went home.  I was saying good bye to my daddy.... he left today (but comes home tomorrow! and leaves again on Wed... hahah.  But my sister comes home WED)!!! Anyway, he gave me his old Nook today... I am rather excited.  Love things like that.  I put my sheets and blankets into the wash (FINALLY), and I cleaned things up, looked in the ads, and found some things that I needed.  I went to Target, got a selection of things, came home, took a chill pill and drank some Yogi tea.

Later, I got a text from Melissa asking for a babysitter tonight and I happily agreed.  I went over and hung out with Emerson and Rowan.  It was so much fun.  We laughed, played, crafted, and Rowan fell asleep in my arms :).

I love life.  Last week before break.

Love & Peace.

Tumblr.

Yesterday I looked into (and joined) a site called Tumblr.

This, essentially, is a blogging site.  You can post pictures, quotes, what you're thinking, sites, ect.  It's really neat.  If you want to read into the things I'm blogging about here's the link: www.chaiteathoughts.tumblr.com

]]peace and love[[

I refrained

I refrained from doing anything strenuous, social, or up beat today.  Today... I rested.

I woke up just a few minutes before my alarm went off (at like 9ish), and I went upstairs to find my dad plowing the enormous pile of snow.  Barnes and Noble was canceled as predicted.

My mom desperately wanted to go to Rainbow and needed someone to go with.  I agreed on the fact that I got to drive (because I had kind of a trust issue this morning... don't know what that was all about :)

After the cold break of morning, I drank my coffee, did yoga, took a shower, and ate some grapefruit.  

From there I watched a movie, cleaned a little, facebooked and read.

It was rather wonderful if I do say so myself.... I seemed kind of sharp whenever I talked to someone today.... and so I kind of refrained from that activity.  I decided it was best to not say much today.  I rather, acted as if I had never said a word in my life.  I needed it.

I just want to remind you... please take the time to clear out your mind of all the craziness that is going on... and don't do anything that requires you to do anything that is considered a great amount of work.  For a day.  You'll see the rewards at the end.

<3R

Grace

As you know, I recently changed my blog headline to "Walking with grace" -- As in, I am done with walking by myself and letting my head get to my heart and get down and wrong.  I am walking with grace by my side... lifting me up each time.  I have this great friend, who acts as my driver around town sometimes, but we listen to good music, talk good talks, and work out (and get sore).  The past few days we have had various reasons to go to different places and I have noticed the song "Grace" by Laura Story on several times.  I love this song so much.

My favorite line is: "Instead of trying to repay you I'm learning to simply obey you."

God doesn't say that following Him is easy, but God promises that He will always give us the tools we need to accomplish the obedience path laid out for us so beautifully.  We will be tempted, trialed, hurt, upset, frustrated, but what will you do? Will you give into those things and let those nonsense feelings get to your head (and your heart)?

Sometimes, the ugly truth is, it will.  We are human, the simple truth is that we will fall short, and that's where this walking with grace thing comes in.  This will pick us up again.  We can try harder next time.  Grace should give us perseverance and renewing.  

Peace & love.

Walking with grace:::

Caedmon's call reminded me today how much I rely on grace.  Throughout my whole entire life I have been walking with grace by my side, ready to pick me up when I fail yet again.

I am going to be completely honest, I suck at life.  I, we, are so fortunate to have this God.  I don't know where I'd be, where I'd go, what I'd do, how much I'd disappoint, ect without this grace walking with me.

I love Caedmon Call's cd, it always reminds me that God wants me to walk with Him. It's truly a wonderful thing to have this God on my side, to catch me when I fall.  

I don't know some days how I do these things:

• Say foul things to others
• Judge others
• Listen to sour things (and let them influence me).
• Ignore God's people who need help.
• Act apathetic.
• Complain.
• Act selfish

(and the list could keep going). 

I want to change some things that I do.  But also, I want to be accepting of the grace that is walking with me through this journey.  I don't feel worthy of it, nor do I deserve it, but it's a freeing gift that I desperately need.

Walk with grace.  Speak with love.  Join with peace.

<3R

Healthy food

I think my body is taking a toll.  I'm not quite sure where I stopped my great healthy eating streak, but my skin is definitely showing it.  No me gusta.  I think my body needs healthy food.

More healthy eating starts now.  I'm sorry body that I put you under all of this.  

I need some fresh fruits, protein, no grease, healthy dairy and whole grains.

 <3R

i am exhausted but from a long week i think i need to write

It is now Thursday night and I feel like it's been a century since I've been on this joint.

It has been a long week.  Legit I have felt like it's been a day ahead, but then I get pulled back into a day behind and therefore feeling like the longest time of my life.  

Some parts I've kind of despised about this week.  Others, I've rather enjoyed.  

I have found myself doing a lot of the following: venting, crying, laughing, singing, reading, studying, smiling, ect.

It has been rather sporadic (that's my new fav word i think).

They have been from one thing to the other extreme.  Like lots of crying.... but lots of laughing? Ha, funny joke rebs.  No legit I have been doing a lot of both this week, whether I like it or not.  And it's been genuine crying... but also genuine laughing (not just the laughing to cover up the crying).  Weird mix dude.

I have come to the result and conclusion, though, that there is no way on this planet that I cannot get on with my weeks/days without God being the first thing I do in the morning.  Scripture + praying gets me out of bed, gets me moving and also those words stay with me.... all day.  That is one of the greatest things about it.  Ashley has been challenging us to read the bible every morning while we eat breakfast... literally have been loving it.  I feel like I've been able to be more real with people, more honest, more genuine, more open, and more patient.  

I'm a work in progress and nothing that comes of me will ever be perfect, but I will always have God watching over.... giving the things that I need.

I had a beautiful night @ the concert (and McDonalds... ha).  

Now, I am tired and my eyes are droopy so I am going to bed.

Have a fun trip, Ashley!!!!

<3r

Unhealthy infatuations

Hello fellow blog readers,

Today is Saturday and I love Saturday.  I am rather sad, though, that tomorrow is Sunday and that means things need to get done for school to start up again for 3 weeks straight.

Also, my mother and I will be not only dropping my sister off at the airport, but also my dad.  My dad is gone alllllll week.  Hate that.

My family, though, will be reunited very soon.

Anyway, the word infatuated is rather a humorous word.  

A lot of you know the meaning of this word- obsessed; in love with.  A friend of mine is infatuated with CSI.  I have another infatuated with this Norwegian boy (I hear about these things 24/7).  

Sometimes I think these things are rather unhealthy.  I judge them before I judge myself.

I'm infatuated with things myself.  Not necessarily healthy things either.

Sometimes I think I'm too infatuated with working (babysitting).  I book myself Friday, Saturday, and Sunday every weekend with babysitting.  Should I really let myself do that?

There is rarely a day on the weekend where I am not babysitting.  

 Unhealthy.

 I want to be infatuated in God.  I have been finding myself not reading my Bible because I'm too tired at night.  I don't allow myself to get spiritually rich.  Unhealthy.

It's bringing me down, too.  I notice a change in my attitude, health, motivations, actions and time with people.  It's unhealthy infatuations.

How do I have time for other things and "none" for the God who has given me so many opportunities (like these)?

Without this amazing Father I wouldn't be doing any of this.  Can't I take time to honor Him and thank Him for what He's done? All these things are unhealthy infatuations if I don't have Him in the middle of everything.  Things are way too out of proportion without Him in the middle of my babysitting, music, words, homework, reading, relationships, ect.  

Where can we put God in the middle?

Tea bags are wise

I learned a lot from my tea bag this evening....

"To learn, read.

To know, write.

To master, teach."

Thanksgiving weekend!

I have had quite the weekend so far....

I got off school yesterday.  Went over to a friends house to look up some volunteer joints... got rather side tracked and had a blast.

Then I went home for a little while, packed all my stuff up, and went over to Allie's.

We had a scavenger hunt around her neighborhood which was a blast.  We came in like last place... hahah.  So much fun though.

Then we had dinner.... this is where it gets sketchy.

I eat the taco (with meat, which i rarely eat) and all the junk on top.

We then, watched a movie, and after the guys left we stopped watching it.  When I sat up, though, my stomach started to do weird things on me.... i decided at that point i needed to get home and sleep.  Mo was deciding to go home, too so she planned on taking me home.

We sneaked our stuff upstairs by the door, and then went around the corner to quickly sing happy birthday to Allie.  I honestly could not look at the cake at this point... seriously thought I was going to die.  I started to walk away and head for the door.  Mo told me to tell allie we were leaving and her and her mom then came to the door.  We explained our reasons for leaving.  They asked if we needed some water or anything.. and I asked for a bag.  At that moment I was about to puke so I darted out the door and I puked in the snow in the yard (ew).  I felt awful but thank the Lord for such nice people.  Mo was like "man this is nothing compared to what I had going on.... I'm totally fine with you being around me"

and honestly, after I puked i felt like a million bucks.  

all of this to say.... I don't think I will be eating any meat except turkey for a very long time...

or anything else that makes me puke (gosh like everything.  have the weakest stomach of my life).

i know you all wanted to know that story.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Eat lots and lots of yummy food.

<3R

Are you raw?

This weekend has been crazy (well since Thursday night on through).

I babysat on Thursday night, then had a sleep over, then babysat on Friday night, then babysat last night... and the ice got so bad so I just slept over at their house.  Did not go to sunday school because the roads were so bad... and I hung out with the Virginia's.  So much fun.  Then I finally made it home... and did my chem and then went and babysat.

Tonight... honestly wasn't good.  It made me question why do I work so often with kids? (now I love these kids... not anything against them... nothing honestly).  But just all the weekends getting filled up... and not enough time for myself.  I was exploding.

This weekend I have also been listening to a song that I have just been singing over and over....

Healing Begins by Tenth Avenue North.

On my ride home tonight I started to cry... and as weird as it may sound to some... I just started to talk.  To talk to God.  I was raw and honest with my feelings.  I didn't hold anything back... I told God this is what I'm struggling with... this is where I feel empty.... this is what is happening in my family right now.... why do I always have to see the doctor.... and God knows all these things... but God loves hearing from us.  God loves when we decide we need to be raw with God.  

Anyone can know anything about anyone... but it really takes the person to confront someone about it and be real with them.

I asked God if he really wanted me to be with kids the rest of my life.  I am so convinced that my calling is to be a teacher.  Some nights I am convinced completely opposite... I just cry and am frustrated and I don't want antying to do with kids.  

Now I need to finish the rest of my story.... I arrived home feeling better after having talked to God about it all.  Then I poured a glass of oj and just plopped myself in front of my mom and started to blab about it all (like usual).  I cried because I was upset and frustrated at myself for being so blind and stupid.... My mom reassured me that she had moments like that when my sister and I were growing up.  I love my mom... seriously my hero.  

I felt so much better the rest of the night.  I know God will open doors and shut doors.  If God doesn't want me to be a teacher so be it.  If he does... he's gonna give me the tools I need.

All of this to say.... Be raw with God.  All the moments you have something you have on your mind.  All the times you're enjoying yourself.  all the times you're crying on your drive home.  all the moments in the world.... be raw with God.

Have a BLESSED thanksgiving!!!!

<3Reb

Ugly

Ever feel ugly?

Inside or out.  Or both.

The days my hair isn't quite straight, I can't cover up those red bumbs, or my bags just hang out... I find myself being ugly.  Inside and out.

Sour and upset.  Everything get's in my way.

Now, those days where my hair looks just great, my face contains no blemishes, and I'm ready to move... It is easy to have beauty inside and out.

My attitude reflects how people seem me, and usually, determine if they want to be around me that day or not.

Some days, I'm ugly.

Waking up late and rushing out the door, bad test grade throws me off, I left my water at home and every teacher seems to have their water bottles that day, I have a head ache.... and the list goes on.  Are those the reasons I am ugly that day?

No of course not, it's the way I react to those situations that I ugly.

My heart isn't right; my whole perspective is blown out of proportion- I think it's the end of the world and all that I can seem to do is react horribly.

When bad things happen, I want to show beauty.  I want to demonstrate patience with others but also myself.  I want to be calm.  I want beauty.

So as this probably doesn't make sense (like a lot my stuff doesn't with stuff scattered here and there), I am challenging myself to put more beauty in, so I can have more beauty out.

That's all.

Peace,

Reb

Keeping it fresh

Today I woke up at 6:30 to the power going out and back on within 3 seconds of each other.... weird waking up.  But then I realized I really needed to pee (surprise surprise).  I go out of my room, and see white overtaking our windows.  So so pretty.  I went to the bathroom, and then went back to bed for 3 hours.

I woke up, took a shower, brewed coffee, and the snow would not let up.  It was beautiful.

My dad taught me how to drive in horrific conditions like today (especially when the plows don't come through).  It was crazy.  

My parents then told me I couldn't go to Ashley's house.  Too much danger, blah blah blah.  I call to tell Ashley, and she said her sweet fam would drive me ( I love you guys).  My parent's protested, and realized they needed to drive me one way (at least), so I made it there- and my dad made me drive.... again... i'm such a great driver in thick 8 inches of snow.

Aside all of this, Ashley and I DYED OUR HAIR!!!!!! It was so much fun.  We were listening to Christmas music, and all excited (and nervous).

 Before: A blonde and a chesnut brunette.  HAir dye virgins.

The dying process :)

 Gearing Ashley up for dying

 Your dying process in the hands of Rebe.  Scary.

 She's sweet for smiling.

 MY HAIR IS DARK.  AH!

 And ashley's hair looks purple :P

 Ready to wash!

Auburn beauty!!!!

So there's the story.  We had a lot of fun.  We are very happy with our hair!

Then we went out in the snow and made a snowman! His name is Jordan.  And he is a shorty because we were too weak to make a huge jordan.  hahahahah.

Ashley read to go outside!

Then Ashley drove me home :) and I ate a turkey sandwich and headed out the door.  I hung out with Sam and Andrew for 4 hours... First time ever babysitting them and I had a blast!

Now I'm drinking Earl grey tea.  So yumo.  

Time for sleepos.

Tomorrow at a glance:

-Church

-Clean clean clean (house is a mess because no one was around last weekend/this week).

-Do my homwork

-Babysit @ Kophischke's @ 4 :)

<3R

My thoughtful Friday

Today I had my interview to go on the Panama Mission Trip.  Mr.  Farrant and Senor interviewed me.... and they asked me about one of the things that has been a thing I've been working on- not being negative.

They asked me how I was working on that- and sorts of things I've been listening to to encourage myself.

I am worthy

I am beautiful

I am not a mistake

I have a perfect plan

I told them that these things can push me when I am feeling negative, or rather just having a horrible day.  When I feel negative, though, I am only usually internally negative.... I beat myself up.  I don't usually tear people down (but I'll admit, I definitely have), aside the point, I give myself all these reasons I am not good enough.

Truth is, when God decided that I was going to live on this earth, He also knew ahead of time that I was worthy of His time and love.

I (and many others), give ourselves so much pain and emotions that we decide, without reason, that we are not worthy.  We are worthless, dirty troublemakers.  I fall in this category.

The turning point has been in the process... I have been giving myself positive thoughts (one each day), and reminding myself multiple times a day that thought.  It has honestly impacted my day to know that I a beautiful person when I roll out of bed, smear some mascara all over, and dab blotches of powder on my face.  I don't feel beautiful, but I am because if my attitude is beautiful, I am beautiful and I am not a mistake.  Neither are you.

<3R

I have a goofy family

Well today is the day my parents and I leave Georgia.  

It has been a really fun time down here.  Being with my family.... Grandma, Keith, Chris and my cousin and cousin-in-law Surprised my sister and i!!! it was terrific.  We had a blast.  

My sister preformed so well yesterday.  Kallen and I goofed off while handing out programs.... I wish I had another day down here.

I am excited, though, to go back to Minnesota and go babysit with Kate @ Stacey's tonight :).

Then tomorrow, I'll have school, and then Ashley and I will go get hair dye.  Yayyyyy baby!

Then I'll do my homework, and go to bed.

Here's some pictures Kari, Andrew, and I took yesterday... we were all laughing like nothing else.  We did this in the lobby, too and I'm sure some people thought we were on crack.

 The Vold family is kinda weird....

 At least one good picture :)

 We're cousins.  We love each other.

 brainiacks

 nice beard, Andrew

 probably the best of them all

oh they're going to have beautiful children...

<3R

Here comes busy

I'm basically writing this post to explain my schedule.  Thank you and I love you....

Tomorrow-

:School

:Drop my car off; pick Shelby up w/Moriah

:Go downtown and serve dinner to homeless people

:Get dinner downtown

:Go to NWC for "Children of Eden" play

:Come back

:Drive to Emma's & sleep over :)

Friday-

:Drive home @ 7:30ish

:Last minute packing

:Drive to the airport

:GET STARBUCKS

:Fly to GA

:See my sister/aunt/Kallen/ect

:Work out

:Sleep in my sisters apartment

Saturday-

:Hang out with fam/friends

:Get ready for my sister's recital

:Sister's recital @ 6

:Stake n' Shake after!!!!

Sunday-

:Breakfast with my aunt & sister

:Drive to Atlanta (2 hrs 45 min)

:Fly home

:Babysit for Stacey's kids :)

Love my life.

Terrific Tuesday

I would call this Tuesday definitely Terrific.  

Yesterday was a bad day.... and today definitely made up for it.

I went in early to learn my math lesson... in the end, getting a brownie, which was delicious, and then I drank my coffee as I went about the problems before everyone arrived.

I got barely any make-up work (I got soooo lucky), and we had the debate today in Bible... that was so interesting (so excited for it to continue).  

Also, Allie brought in this lotion for everyone to use that smells like Christmas.  Mmmm... I love christmas.  BRING IT, NOVEMBER!!!

Oh yeah, did I mention it's also my half birthday today?? Pretty great day :)

After school I went to the Salon Professional Academy & had the SWEETEST lady of my life!!! Her name is Laura and she is hilarious, sweet and hard working.

I went to Chins Asia Fresh in Minnetonka to pick up dinner for my mom and I before I went home, then my mom and I ate, I did my homework, took a shower, watched the election stuff come in, and now I'm studying for Chem/getting ready to sleep.

Here's some pics from the past few days....

So... yesterday I went home with a head ache, stomach ache and a hacking cough.... I put on my pj's and slept for hours.  It felt amazing.  I didn't have a head or stomach ache anymore.. I'm still coughing but that's why I have tea!

And water!!!!

Chem studying.  Who even understands these polyatomicions???

so... I got a hairscut.

::love and peace on earth::

halloween sunday

Because it's halloween today I don't believe in school tomorrow.  I'm upset.
But I had an amazing night.... ashley, chris, alyssa and I all hung out in the back of the crowd, walking at a normal pace while trick-or-treating.  It was a blast... we had fun.  Then Ashley and I decided to come to my neighborhood, so we walked around for a while, and then we came back to my house and had apple pie w/ice cream.  It was good, and nice to warm up :).
Then ashy left, I showered, and now I'm drinking a cup of tea + putting on chap stick like it's a drug.

<3 and peaces on this 4 day week! (wish it was only 3)!!!
but a day off is a day off, pretty nice.  I am traveling to Georgia that day to visit my sister who has her senior recital Saturday night.  Can't wait!  Love you.

I love saturdays

From the moment I woke up this morning I have been singing the song "Sparks Fly"

My alarm went off @ 8, and I decided I needed more sleep.  My dad came down and knocked on my door @ 9:30.  Felt kind of nice to sleep in this morning.
I looked so tired while drinking my coffee, though.... so funny.

Lookin' droopy.... need to get ready for the day!

Tried this Advanced Chestal Cough medicine.... I think I need to give it another day.  Not sure if it's amazing yet or not.

After all the rendezvous of getting up this morning I got ready... and left with the Crane's to head to Minnesota harvest apple orchard to meet up with the Vance's!
my mom and Mrs. Vance stayed behind and talked.... while Mr. Crane, Kate, Abigail, and I all went and picked apples.  It was a thrill of a time, that's for sure!
After a while, we headed home- and stopped @ Arby's for lunch.  Ouchhhhh my stomach took a toll this afternoon.  I had a healthy salad, brocoli and oj for dinner.  Then I went to the O'Connell house to babysit!!

These are the reasons I babysit... because the parents need to be Caveman and woman.  So so so funny!!!! It was hilarious to come in the door and see them dressed like this.  They went to a Halloween party which was just great.
The boys and I blew up a ton of balloons and played soccer, don't let it touch the ground, baseball, football, ect with the balloons as we watched Bedtime Stories (I got there around 7 and they were exhausted... it was a chill night before they went to bed).
I love those boys..... then Mike came home, and we talked for a good while, and I headed home....
As I was driving home, I was listening to an older Christian song, thinking about how transparent or masked we can be.... I was reading another blog post the other day- which triggered a lot of these thoughts.
Personally, I am such a transparent person.  People tell me that all the time (whether I like being transparent, or not... i don't), but I am transparent (to at least observant people).  It's easy to read my body language and mind.  Some people, whom I wish I was like, are much harder to read; they have a mask.  Sometimes I wish I had that mask that I could cover up in, and quite being so real and needy all the time.  When you're transparent, I feel you're needy and so showy and everything is about you.  I hate that so much.  Where's my mask?
As I read this post, I was reminded of how broken I am.  Why can't I be okay with being real and showing who I REALLY am?  I am broken, you're broken, everyone's broken if we have a mask or not.  My prayer is to accept everyone as they are; broken or beautiful.... we all come from somewhere and we all break several times in life.  Why don't we acknowledge that we are broken and people who struggle with things?  Let's change our point of view.

Sorry if that was a mix of stuff and very hard to follow (my sentence structure usually doesn't make sense ever anyway).
<3R

I need stress relief

 This is me.  Stressed, tired, crabby Rebe.

My getaway... running/working out.  Makes me as happy as a fat man eating donuts.

I need a week of playing hooky and getting stress relief.....

Well, life rolls on as usual.

Tomorrow::

apple picking with kc & av + our fams

babysitting for Stacey's kids!

go to the halloween party if there is time left

<3 <3 <3

Green is my new fav.

Well, here's the deal... I've been thinking more green lately (reusing things, not wasting so many things, and recycling).... But green has become my new favorite color.  Especially when it comes to wearing things (shirts).

 I love green.  it's such a pretty color.  def my new fav.

 the many faces of rebe: kinda tired.

 i want a long weekend

this wind is annoying and cold

anyway, this post is about how much i love green.  i'm kind of obsessed with the color right now.  it's my fav.  i think it will be for a while.... going running now!

<3R

Weird monday....

Well i arrived home to the delightful smell of fresh wheat bread & fresh banana bread.  Mother, thank you for making delicious things on a rainy day....

Well, I ate delicious banana bread, fresh out of the oven, and explained to my mom how it was the weirdest day of my life.

Then, I went to rainbow to pick up ground turkey breast and just straight up Turkey for my lunches... pretty slick.

Then I came home, and I went for a TWO MILER RUN!!!!

I was so ecstatic! I wasn't even panting or anything... Thankful my body is getting back into shape HOLLA!

After that I went to target- and I had drank 2 camelback fulls of water... and I was skipping up and down the isles having to pee so bad.  Hilarious.  Then I was getting tampons and a guy that I know walked passed the isle looking at me... and giving me an awkward hi.... hahaha made my day.

I went home after that, in the dreary evening, and I ate Chili and corn bread... so good, did some homework, did random tasks, and then made some Chai tea, watch the thunderstorm, and now I'm going to bed.  Oh I told ashley to send me whipped cream.... through twitter, and I ate it.  Nummmmy.

<3R

Dreary Sunday.

Today was quite dreary and rainy... I cleaned a lot, and did enormous amounts of homework (Math is still bogging me down since my dad and I can't figure it out). 

I have been keeping in my mind, though, that I am apart of God's puzzle and story.  This morning all the little kids put their names on a puzzle piece and put them by a cross in the Sunday school room.  Really fun and cute.  I want to always keep in mind that I am beautiful, worthy, and important.  That sounds quite conceited, and a lot of times I don't believe those truths, but God sees me that way and that's how I need to look at myself (In so many situations).

This day has been a nice and beautiful day.... more of a quiet day.  I went for a run in the drizzle, talked over lunch about College visits, and enjoyed a nice cup of Chai tea... and my dad is picking up Damico's (coupon for GAME DAY), and we're going to sit and watch the Vikings destroy the Packers @ Lambeau fields for another year in a row!!!!!

Love and peace,

Rebs

Much better run than yesterday!!

The life surviving off water and coffee....

Lots of my day consists of consuming Coffee & enormous amounts of water.  I have been told, that if I want to concentrate (for a decent amount of time) without drugs I need the most amount of water on the planet.  Plus my body is retarted and needs help.

Well, throughout these past few days I have been drinking exceeding amounts of liquids and peeing every 10 minutes (not out of the norm), and still extremely tired.

I have been running around, visiting colleges, walking like heck, and running errands for my parents.  I love my life.

On Thursday, as you know, I visited St. Cloud State University which I immediately fell in love with.

On Friday, I visited Minnesota State University Mankato.  Complete opposite feel, and I still loved everything about it.  I didn't like that the campus is sort of isolated from downtown Mankato, though (and it's roughly 2 hrs from home vs. St. Cloud being only an hr). 

Now it sounds like I want to be super close to home- not necessarily true, I don't want to be that student who goes home every weekend, because I want to be with my friends having a social life... engaging in the activities, ect... But honestly I have felt that I have loved both of these colleges and they offer such a great Elementary and Special Education programs.... amazing.

After visiting Mankato last night, my parents and I met Abigail and her mom @ Panera Bread in Mankato for some dinner.  It was nice to see them and laugh about miscellaneous topics, and drink Chai teas and love life.  I was so tired on the ride home... but I found myself telling my parents pointless stories as always.

I woke up this morning, and was sent to Rainbow to get some eggs and Buttermilk because my mom made some Pumpkin Pancakes for breakfast.  I ate them after I went for a short (yet painful) run this morning... I haven't done straight running in a lifetime.  It's so horrible I need to get back into shape.  Mucho.  I worked on the computer a little bit, went to the library, talked to my sister, read a little bit, and then went babysitting for the Galloway's.  The kiddos were pretty tuckered out from the weekend, so we ate dinner, played a lot of board games... they read :) it was a nice fun evening.  They went to bed and I talked to Ashley E for a little while... which was a nice change of pace.... such a great friend and listener.  Then shortly after the parents came home, and I left, deposited my check, and now I'm home, ready to go to bed.  

(sorry for the random order of the pictures... they uploaded funny).

 My soup in a bread bowl @ Panera.  Garden Vegetable with pesto!!! So good!

 Lovvvving the chai!

 Me and Abigail enjoying our night!

 Pumpkin pancakes made from SCRATCH by my mommy!

 Delicious apples on the side.

 Water water.....

 Sweet hearted Marlene and I.  I am a horrible person to take a picture with, though....

 Cafe!

I love you all.... xoxox

I have had a fun filled weekend and I am definitely exhausted.... sleep tight!!!! No beddy bugs.

Today I'm a Husky. Tomorrow I'm a Maverick.

Today I woke up, went to Panera to hear all about the Czech Republic from Shelby Grosser... and realized MONEY was stolen from my locker yesterday!!!! Ugh!!!!! Madening! But it was a beautiful morning to talk to the Dear Shelby... whom I haven't seen in like a trillion years.  Bless her heart.

This morning set the tone for my terrific day.  I visited St. Cloud State University! Love the atmosphere, campus, people, and education program!!!! It is seriously a bomb school.  I am Husky Today.

Proud supporter of SCSU! Great school, in my top 3 for sure.

I hung out with O'Connell boys this afternoon.... More in particular Nolan.  Cully and Gavy were hanging out with Jo jo across the street, so Nolly and I acted a little silly.  It was such a fun afternoon/evning.  Stacey brought back chinese & Pizza hut... she gave me hot and sour soup... sooo good.  Stacey and I talked for a good long while... loved it.  Love Stacey's heart.

tomorrow I will be heading to Minnesota State University Mankato.  My mom's cousin teaches health there so we were invited to sit in during her class.... then we're all going to get some lunch in Mankato, and then go back to campus and tour all of it- then @ 5 I'm talking with the special ed therapy advisor!!!! So pumped! Thne I'm meeting abigail and her family for dinner since they live down there.  What a great day.

I just took an oatmeal bath.... itchy crap all over from the hay ride.  Thank the Lord for baths + oatmeal + amazing friends who call you + cho-co-lat-e

xoxox,

Rebs