A decade lived...

10 years have come and gone

years I have faced and showed my challenges who is boss

but also, I have had failures

and what lies ahead is... another year

another year to succeed,  another year to fail

another year to dream, another year to stress

another year to try my hardest, another year to kick some butt

another year to see my flaws
another year to take action,  another year to realize

another year to try something new,  another year of obsessions

another year to rock,  another year to suck

another year to laugh,  another year to cry

another year to hang with friends,  another year to feel alone at times

another year to give the Lord all I have,  another year to feel like nothing is happening

another year, what are your resolutions?

There is one new years resolution I have, one which is going to be very important to me.  Sit & Listen.  Listen to others, listen to God; listen.  I tend to speak; tell whatever is in my mind, well this time, I'm listening.  I have already been challenged with this concept on a more personal level, this school year -- God has given me such people, stories, and lives to be involved in, people of which are in hurt.  They need someone to listen.

Also, I want to be listening to God.  I'm ready to have him look no more, and see that I am wanting to follow, I am ready to serve; He has plans beyond my reach, and I'm ready.  Will it be an easy path to live?  Will I want to leave the moment I enter?  ...maybe, but this life is journey.  Unexpected.  God sends things he knows we can go through, God wired us in such a way that makes us somehow come across these hard bumps, and push forward.  My God is strong.

maybe he will bring something hard this year.  will I be ready?

with his truth, love, and care by my side, yes I will.

other new years resolutions that I'm going to take one by one...

-be more conscious of my decisions

-don't waste so much time

-be more prepared at times

-be more willing to make mistakes

-be more loving

...and the list goes.  we'll never get to perfect, and i don't plan to, but there's always something to work and make better...

Happy 2010 to everyone! It's almost here! Love you all!!!

christmas break

I must say, Christmas break has been relaxing and fun.  It has been filled with joy, beauty, family, and love.  I have done many things so far, and I am looking forward to many other things next week, which will be nice.

What I have done-

-Been to a wedding

-Gotten surgery on my knee

-Been to physical therapy, and other appointments

-Done cookie baking with lovely ladies
-Baked/Frosted cookies with my family

-Watched the Office with my sister!!

-Had Christmas, which was wonderful!!!
-Seen many friends & family!
-Slept in
-Writing

Things I've yet to do-
-Read some good books!!
-Game nights
-Get season five of the Office
-Have sleep overs
-Sleep in much more
-Have lots of physical therapy
and much more!


Aside all of this, I have seen one, true, beautiful thing, by so many.  Especially my parents and my sister, also my friends:



I have seen selfless love.

I have been immensely blessed.

I am extremely gracious.

I am so thankful.

I had acl reconstruction surgery on Monday morning.  I was nervous, I won't lie.  But there aligned supportive and sweet nurses, my parents who prayed over me constantly, and very smart people who knew what they were doing.

People have taken time out of their day, to come and visit me.  It has blessed me, and I have completely appreciated it.

My mom has also been battling a cold and yet, she still wakes up in the middle of the night to remind me to take my pain killers, she's giving up her time, to make sure I'm okay.

My dad and my sister have also made me food, been with me, done so much for me.  I am incredibly blessed person, and I am so appreciative. 

I am humbled.

This is a great example of how unselfish love is displayed.  A lot of times I have a hard time of accepting gifts given to me.  I feel unworthy, and uncomfortable accepting gifts.  A good friend of mine told me I needed to work on just saying thank you.  Learning how to accept something and be humbled by that act of kindness and love.  Since that moment I have learned how to just be thankful and humble by these deeds.

Luke 2:11-12 "Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, 'Glory to God in the highest and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests.'"

Yes, the day of Christmas may have sprung and ended, but the Savior, Jesus lives.