you are going to learn something today, from someone who has been dishonest, untrustworthy, and failed to meet the mark. many times.
please please please listen to your parents. if they tell you to do something, just do it. do not make assumptions in your mind that if you have done it a number of times that you do not need to do it anymore. it will make you suffer expensive, and emotional consequences. it. sucks. so please please please do not go against anything your parents say. they. will. not. trust. you.
and here's the bad part: if you do not have a good past with trust, it is even harder. so the younger you can get your parents to trust you, the better. i have always kind of been a rebel since i was little..so that is not for my cause.
now, if you are like me, and you do not have an amazing trust record with your parents (i mean, i love my parents, but my past is not as pretty as they would wish), please remember you have grace to lean back on. sometimes i think God comes in the weirdest ways. last night my prayer was however you need to reveal yourself to me, and get my attention, please do it.
and well..here it is. i definitely got a wake up call. i can only learn from the things i have done wrong.
please remember that you have righteous grace to lean on. remember that you can be washed clean, and that you can not beat yourself up forever. i get angry with myself when things turn out this way..and i am still angry..but i am remembering the grace i have to lean on. i have to get back up again.
yes..hearing your parents say "you have proved yourself not trustworthy again" sucks..but it gives me more of a reason to do better. now.
Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. “Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.” Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger, but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.
~Ephesians 6:1-4
He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me. Therefore I take pleasure in weaknesses, in injuries, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then am I strong.
~2 Corinthians 12:9-10
xoxo,
rebecca
4.26.2011
4.25.2011
4.24.2011
reflections..
so tonight we had a ralia game. i just got home about 20 minutes ago and enjoyed left over chinese food (which i was deeply craving on my drive home).
but we did not win our game. we lost to a number i lost track of.
as i was driving to school to drop a couple friends off..we were reflecting on the night. and negative points about the night. negative feelings.
i am just going to say this (not holding grudges): It does not do a person good (or a want to play soccer) when you are being yelled at from the side lines..and singled out the whole game. and during half time (even when the person saying it is not just you two). one girl and i were singled out by this person numerous times throughout the game. yes, she also singled others out, but not as much as us. or in as harsh of a tone as us. very fast i got hot tempered. i kept my feelings away from her..and i kept breathing through the game. i played some places i wasn't sure how to play..learned a lot. but what i am saying is we need to be patient. patient with the ones who are not patient with us, patient with those who do not learn easily..patient with hot heads..patient with our team. we are supposed to be a body; we are acting as a broken body. we cannot function this way.
the whole team but three tonight got rather dissed. the captains played as d and mid for the second half. slap in the face..you suck..not good enough. i was personally hurt, and by doing this we did not do any better..hopefully we will learn from this experience.
as i have spoke my thoughts and feelings..i want to reflect on a much more important topic. something that is calming me down. we have Sunday coming..in 5 minutes.
after i had dropped my friends off, i turned on my music and listened to At the Foot of the Cross the whole way home. I have seriously not listened to this song since 8th grade..i am laying all of this pain..all of this disappointments down for the sake of myself. bottling all of this up inside will do me no good. nothing. it will work against me..Yes, you've won my heart. Now I can trade these ashes in for beauty. I wear forgiveness like a crown. Coming to kiss the feet of mercy, I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross. I am done holding this inside. I am getting rid of it. My mother always has told me that I will SELDOM go to sleep with problems. Just a few weeks ago I got in an argument with my parents and I couldn't go to sleep. I went into their room, woke them up just to say sorry. After that I slept like a baby. God has put something in me that cannot hold onto conflict. We are to live @ peace with one another. Not in anger..
And to end my soccer story..even though I was mad in my mind at some people on my team I realized we just need to let go of it..what happens on the field stays on the field..and i told my team that. we cannot get so worked up over something that will make us hold grudges.
Jesus is coming to save us all..we are not perfect..we all need grace to fall back on. i will not be forgiven if i do not forgive them first..
xoxo..happy easter!
but we did not win our game. we lost to a number i lost track of.
as i was driving to school to drop a couple friends off..we were reflecting on the night. and negative points about the night. negative feelings.
i am just going to say this (not holding grudges): It does not do a person good (or a want to play soccer) when you are being yelled at from the side lines..and singled out the whole game. and during half time (even when the person saying it is not just you two). one girl and i were singled out by this person numerous times throughout the game. yes, she also singled others out, but not as much as us. or in as harsh of a tone as us. very fast i got hot tempered. i kept my feelings away from her..and i kept breathing through the game. i played some places i wasn't sure how to play..learned a lot. but what i am saying is we need to be patient. patient with the ones who are not patient with us, patient with those who do not learn easily..patient with hot heads..patient with our team. we are supposed to be a body; we are acting as a broken body. we cannot function this way.
the whole team but three tonight got rather dissed. the captains played as d and mid for the second half. slap in the face..you suck..not good enough. i was personally hurt, and by doing this we did not do any better..hopefully we will learn from this experience.
as i have spoke my thoughts and feelings..i want to reflect on a much more important topic. something that is calming me down. we have Sunday coming..in 5 minutes.
after i had dropped my friends off, i turned on my music and listened to At the Foot of the Cross the whole way home. I have seriously not listened to this song since 8th grade..i am laying all of this pain..all of this disappointments down for the sake of myself. bottling all of this up inside will do me no good. nothing. it will work against me..Yes, you've won my heart. Now I can trade these ashes in for beauty. I wear forgiveness like a crown. Coming to kiss the feet of mercy, I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross. I am done holding this inside. I am getting rid of it. My mother always has told me that I will SELDOM go to sleep with problems. Just a few weeks ago I got in an argument with my parents and I couldn't go to sleep. I went into their room, woke them up just to say sorry. After that I slept like a baby. God has put something in me that cannot hold onto conflict. We are to live @ peace with one another. Not in anger..
And to end my soccer story..even though I was mad in my mind at some people on my team I realized we just need to let go of it..what happens on the field stays on the field..and i told my team that. we cannot get so worked up over something that will make us hold grudges.
Jesus is coming to save us all..we are not perfect..we all need grace to fall back on. i will not be forgiven if i do not forgive them first..
xoxo..happy easter!
4.23.2011
cant wait for the weekend weekend..
well it is already saturday.
this weekend has FLOWN BY (i am counting thursday and friday).
loved my college visits. so much to consider.
tonight:
-meeting some pretty ladies @ dunn bros.
-RALIA GAME!!!
-coming home..sleeping
tomorrow:
-EASTER SUNDAY!!
-early early service
-last minute cleaning
-make the easter egg hunt
-FAMILY TIME :):):)
monday:
-babysitting
-homework..
-get ready for school : (
here's some pictahs!
GORGEOUS sunset in Mizzou!
Southwest Baptist!
The university of KS!
green monster dinnaa! getting ready for that ralia game!
xoxo,
rebeccA C
this weekend has FLOWN BY (i am counting thursday and friday).
loved my college visits. so much to consider.
tonight:
-meeting some pretty ladies @ dunn bros.
-RALIA GAME!!!
-coming home..sleeping
tomorrow:
-EASTER SUNDAY!!
-early early service
-last minute cleaning
-make the easter egg hunt
-FAMILY TIME :):):)
monday:
-babysitting
-homework..
-get ready for school : (
here's some pictahs!
xoxo,
rebeccA C
4.22.2011
time on the road..
i have had quite the adventures!
on wednesday i left school @ 1220. i drove home, drove to the airport, checked some bags, went through security, got some starbucks, and got on the airplane! my dad + i flew into KC. we got a new jeep and drove down to the little towns of Bolivar and springfield. We decided to take a quick car tour of SBU. so we got off the exit of Bolivar and toured the small city. The biggest things in town (besides the university) include: Walmart and Sonic. We then headed 30 more minutes south to Springfield. We unpacked, I showered, and we went to bed.
Yesterday I had to wake up @ 645 (pretty much a normal school day), my dad had kindly gotten me a starbucks, though. I got ready, and we headed up to Bolivar to meet the Cranes for breakfast. We ate at Brenda's cafe. Then Kate and I asked how Bolivar was actually pronounced...and it's like Boliver. Crazy concept. I could not get over it.
After that, us four went for a walk around the town. We enjoyed our nice little morning walk around the little town. We took many pictures..ect. Then we went over to SBU and we had a tour! it was great to see the whole campus where I may spend four years of my life. I met with the Admissions counselor..she was so nice. Her name is Rebekah and she answered so many of my questions. Super nice lady. Then we walked up to the Education and Psychology building and my dad and I talked to mrs. boen (the education professor) and she gave us a lot of information. Then she gave us a tour of the building. Loved it! Then all four of us met up again for lunch. After that we went to the bookstore and got some SBU apparel. After that Kate and I got a tour of Leslie and Beasley hall. And then we left and went to sonic for half off cherry limeades! mmm. i haven't had one of those in like 2 years. mm mm mm. after that we went back to our hotels, changed, and then the Cranes met us at our hotel, and we went out into the thunderstorm to drive around Springfield. And it is legitimately a city. We found an antique store, and our purchases included: crazy head bands, a Tigger shirt, and a unique necklace. Pretty cheap, pretty fun. Then we went to picklemans for dinner. Ate up, and then went to a theater and watched Soul surfer. It was worth it. I liked it. We headed back to the hotel, I showered, and I read some Gatsby..and fell asleep in the process. I. Was. So. Tired. My dad woke me up at 7 this morning and had coffee and a muffin for me..I got ready, packed up the last of my stuff and we headed out. We are now on the road..reading some gatsby..about only 2 more hours until we are in Lawrence! I am excited to see the city! ROCK CHALK JAYHAWK!!!
Then tomorrow morning we will leave for KC and we will fly home! I have loved my trip!
Tomorrow includes: unpacking, CLEANING, ralia soccer..reflecting on jesus..
then easter sunday service..looking for my easter basket : )), and then the famILY is coming over! and then after all of those festivities...tie dye party @ the VOLD HOUSE!!! so excited. anyway..i am loving my rainy drive.
here are some pics:
xoxo..peace.
on wednesday i left school @ 1220. i drove home, drove to the airport, checked some bags, went through security, got some starbucks, and got on the airplane! my dad + i flew into KC. we got a new jeep and drove down to the little towns of Bolivar and springfield. We decided to take a quick car tour of SBU. so we got off the exit of Bolivar and toured the small city. The biggest things in town (besides the university) include: Walmart and Sonic. We then headed 30 more minutes south to Springfield. We unpacked, I showered, and we went to bed.
Yesterday I had to wake up @ 645 (pretty much a normal school day), my dad had kindly gotten me a starbucks, though. I got ready, and we headed up to Bolivar to meet the Cranes for breakfast. We ate at Brenda's cafe. Then Kate and I asked how Bolivar was actually pronounced...and it's like Boliver. Crazy concept. I could not get over it.
After that, us four went for a walk around the town. We enjoyed our nice little morning walk around the little town. We took many pictures..ect. Then we went over to SBU and we had a tour! it was great to see the whole campus where I may spend four years of my life. I met with the Admissions counselor..she was so nice. Her name is Rebekah and she answered so many of my questions. Super nice lady. Then we walked up to the Education and Psychology building and my dad and I talked to mrs. boen (the education professor) and she gave us a lot of information. Then she gave us a tour of the building. Loved it! Then all four of us met up again for lunch. After that we went to the bookstore and got some SBU apparel. After that Kate and I got a tour of Leslie and Beasley hall. And then we left and went to sonic for half off cherry limeades! mmm. i haven't had one of those in like 2 years. mm mm mm. after that we went back to our hotels, changed, and then the Cranes met us at our hotel, and we went out into the thunderstorm to drive around Springfield. And it is legitimately a city. We found an antique store, and our purchases included: crazy head bands, a Tigger shirt, and a unique necklace. Pretty cheap, pretty fun. Then we went to picklemans for dinner. Ate up, and then went to a theater and watched Soul surfer. It was worth it. I liked it. We headed back to the hotel, I showered, and I read some Gatsby..and fell asleep in the process. I. Was. So. Tired. My dad woke me up at 7 this morning and had coffee and a muffin for me..I got ready, packed up the last of my stuff and we headed out. We are now on the road..reading some gatsby..about only 2 more hours until we are in Lawrence! I am excited to see the city! ROCK CHALK JAYHAWK!!!
Then tomorrow morning we will leave for KC and we will fly home! I have loved my trip!
Tomorrow includes: unpacking, CLEANING, ralia soccer..reflecting on jesus..
then easter sunday service..looking for my easter basket : )), and then the famILY is coming over! and then after all of those festivities...tie dye party @ the VOLD HOUSE!!! so excited. anyway..i am loving my rainy drive.
here are some pics:
xoxo..peace.
4.18.2011
there. is. no. time.
wheww i noticed that this is my 300th post! since mid-summer after freshman year i have now posted 300 posts. that. is. a. lot.
moving on,
today was crazy! lots of work, lots of laughing, lots of memories..ect. then i had nannying after school..and there was a big misunderstanding...i had no time. literally. i somehow had to go home, get my guitar, print off chords and lyrics, get gas, get food, and drive up to school in 15 minutes. yeah did not happen.
i was in a rush..and i made it there @ 625. i was supposed to be there at 615. the meeting started at 630. ben and i did not get to practice. it went well..he so willingly followed me the whole time. i just played what i knew, and relied on God..because out of His divine mystery he had that all planned out..
i am a blessed person. i had a lot of fun @ the rest of the meeting. we found out our groups for our mission trip!!!! senor is my leader, and lindsay, adam, conor, hattie, rebekah are all in my group. so excited!!!!
anyway, i came home, and i took a shower. then i made a green monster for my mom and i to share, and i just talked to my parents about life..we decided that i should take sailing lessons this summer. and we also talked about my college visits. they could not believe how old that i am getting. they soon will be an empty nest couple..hah.
then i did my remaining homework..and finished my green monster. and listened to austin kyle (hence the name of this title...NO TIME..kind of explains my life right now)!
well tomorrow i am planning on school, go home, take a nap, skype with alyssa and PACK FOR MY TRIP!! so stoked.
green monster!
tarea de matematicas!
goofing around!
reading a very wonderfully challenging book!
Peace.
moving on,
today was crazy! lots of work, lots of laughing, lots of memories..ect. then i had nannying after school..and there was a big misunderstanding...i had no time. literally. i somehow had to go home, get my guitar, print off chords and lyrics, get gas, get food, and drive up to school in 15 minutes. yeah did not happen.
i was in a rush..and i made it there @ 625. i was supposed to be there at 615. the meeting started at 630. ben and i did not get to practice. it went well..he so willingly followed me the whole time. i just played what i knew, and relied on God..because out of His divine mystery he had that all planned out..
i am a blessed person. i had a lot of fun @ the rest of the meeting. we found out our groups for our mission trip!!!! senor is my leader, and lindsay, adam, conor, hattie, rebekah are all in my group. so excited!!!!
anyway, i came home, and i took a shower. then i made a green monster for my mom and i to share, and i just talked to my parents about life..we decided that i should take sailing lessons this summer. and we also talked about my college visits. they could not believe how old that i am getting. they soon will be an empty nest couple..hah.
then i did my remaining homework..and finished my green monster. and listened to austin kyle (hence the name of this title...NO TIME..kind of explains my life right now)!
well tomorrow i am planning on school, go home, take a nap, skype with alyssa and PACK FOR MY TRIP!! so stoked.
green monster!
tarea de matematicas!
goofing around!
reading a very wonderfully challenging book!
Peace.
4.16.2011
new favorite recipe!
.green monster.
favorite smoothie ever!
it gives me endless, natural energy that i need! and it is delicious!
you will need:
-2 cups of spinach
-1+1/4 cup of any milk of your choosing (i use soy or almond milk).
-1 banana
-1 tbs of flax (optional)
-ice
-and a blender!
put the ingredients in this order: flax, spinach, banana, milk..blend for a minute. add ice and grind until smooth.
then wa la! delicious is coming right your way! (you do not taste ANY spinach because the beauty of fruit is that it completely overpowers any vegetable taste)!
a green smoothie to match my green room! (i LOVE GREEN).
feeling adventurous? want something new to love? try a green monster!
favorite smoothie ever!
it gives me endless, natural energy that i need! and it is delicious!
you will need:
-2 cups of spinach
-1+1/4 cup of any milk of your choosing (i use soy or almond milk).
-1 banana
-1 tbs of flax (optional)
-ice
-and a blender!
put the ingredients in this order: flax, spinach, banana, milk..blend for a minute. add ice and grind until smooth.
then wa la! delicious is coming right your way! (you do not taste ANY spinach because the beauty of fruit is that it completely overpowers any vegetable taste)!
a green smoothie to match my green room! (i LOVE GREEN).
feeling adventurous? want something new to love? try a green monster!
upcoming!
i have already loved my weekend. i am now going to do my homework, clean, show my dress to deb, and get myself organized! (maybe even start packing)?
so i only have a three day week! i am so excited! i am leaving wednesday for not one, but 2 college visits! on thursday, kate, her dad, my dad, and i will be in the little town of Bolivar, Missouri visiting southwest baptist university. middle of no where. i am so excited.
and then on friday morning, just my dad and i will be driving up to Lawrence, Kansas and visit KANSAS UNIVERSITY!!! Rock, Chalk, Jayhawk!!! so excited. going to be a wonderful experience. then i will arrive back in minneapolis by saturday. and then sunday is EASTER! i love this time of the year! and having all of my cousins come over and look around for easter eggs..and praise the Lord for his amazing, ever-flowing forgiveness!
xoxo! will be updating!
so i only have a three day week! i am so excited! i am leaving wednesday for not one, but 2 college visits! on thursday, kate, her dad, my dad, and i will be in the little town of Bolivar, Missouri visiting southwest baptist university. middle of no where. i am so excited.
and then on friday morning, just my dad and i will be driving up to Lawrence, Kansas and visit KANSAS UNIVERSITY!!! Rock, Chalk, Jayhawk!!! so excited. going to be a wonderful experience. then i will arrive back in minneapolis by saturday. and then sunday is EASTER! i love this time of the year! and having all of my cousins come over and look around for easter eggs..and praise the Lord for his amazing, ever-flowing forgiveness!
xoxo! will be updating!
4.12.2011
terrific tuesday
i love tuesday. it is probably one of my favorite days of the week.
tie dye..a time after school with nothing going on..a time to relax (or go run around the park with some friends).
it was perfect afternoon. me liz and lindsay all went to my park and worked on our passes with soccer. it was a lot of fun. then we took some laps around the park.
then they left and i made a smoothie! so delicious. then i was sent on some errands. i had the windows down..my music up high..and i drank some yo-j.
i came back home, ate a filling dinner, took the garbage out, took a shower, did my math and science homework. and then i just went for a half hour walk around my neighborhood to worship God for the beauty he has given us.
i just did some blog reading and now i am going to do some yoga and go nite nite. need a good nites rest!
i am loving this weather! happy tuesday!
i love my windows open, my sunglasses on, and country music up high.
a smoothie sort of afternoon!
Peace, R
tie dye..a time after school with nothing going on..a time to relax (or go run around the park with some friends).
it was perfect afternoon. me liz and lindsay all went to my park and worked on our passes with soccer. it was a lot of fun. then we took some laps around the park.
then they left and i made a smoothie! so delicious. then i was sent on some errands. i had the windows down..my music up high..and i drank some yo-j.
i came back home, ate a filling dinner, took the garbage out, took a shower, did my math and science homework. and then i just went for a half hour walk around my neighborhood to worship God for the beauty he has given us.
i just did some blog reading and now i am going to do some yoga and go nite nite. need a good nites rest!
i am loving this weather! happy tuesday!
i love my windows open, my sunglasses on, and country music up high.
a smoothie sort of afternoon!
Peace, R
4.11.2011
crazy love
over the past i don't know..maybe 3 weeks i have been reading crazy love.
it is seriously changing me. when i finish reading the section each night i pray to God to help me with that challenge. give me challenge that will glorify you.
well i'm going to use a little example that has been pressuring me for a few weeks..
so every saturday i have a ralia soccer game (tonight was an exception).
..so i have sort of felt inadequate and it playing soccer has not been worth my time. i have felt unneeded, or even worse, unwanted.
so tonight i kind of hit rock bottom. and it all kind of came out.
which is okay, but it's embarrassing when the whole soccer team sees you. (usually you wait for the car ride home). here's some hope and love that i received from this book tonight on loving others: "The fact is, I need God to help me love God. And if I need His help to love Him, a perfect being, I definitely need His help to love other, fault-filled humans. Something mysterious, even supernatural must happen in order for genuine love for God to grow in our hearts. The Holy Spirit has to move in our lives." --Francis chan
---> so here's the deal. we are all people who mess up..soccer is a hard game, and sometimes we need to warn each other of people who are sneaking in..and it is not out of hatred. i am learning each and every day to not take things so personally (because quite honestly, i do). and what happens on the field is going to stay on the field.. the end.
it is seriously changing me. when i finish reading the section each night i pray to God to help me with that challenge. give me challenge that will glorify you.
well i'm going to use a little example that has been pressuring me for a few weeks..
so every saturday i have a ralia soccer game (tonight was an exception).
..so i have sort of felt inadequate and it playing soccer has not been worth my time. i have felt unneeded, or even worse, unwanted.
so tonight i kind of hit rock bottom. and it all kind of came out.
which is okay, but it's embarrassing when the whole soccer team sees you. (usually you wait for the car ride home). here's some hope and love that i received from this book tonight on loving others: "The fact is, I need God to help me love God. And if I need His help to love Him, a perfect being, I definitely need His help to love other, fault-filled humans. Something mysterious, even supernatural must happen in order for genuine love for God to grow in our hearts. The Holy Spirit has to move in our lives." --Francis chan
---> so here's the deal. we are all people who mess up..soccer is a hard game, and sometimes we need to warn each other of people who are sneaking in..and it is not out of hatred. i am learning each and every day to not take things so personally (because quite honestly, i do). and what happens on the field is going to stay on the field.. the end.
4.10.2011
If you don't know already..
it is official. i have a date to the formal.
i am thrilled. i am definitely looking forward to the night.
my friends really helped me out by making posters, a t-shirt, ect.
the process and end result was so much fun!
--we made cupcakes and one said yes and one said no.
it was so sweet to hear him say "i am going to take the yes one."
i am very excited.
pictures are below.
events coming//previously happen(ing)(ed):
--ACT was crazy on Saturday!
--i am loving being able to go to the park with my friends and play soccer
--I LOVED THE FIRST THUNDERSTORM OF THE YEAR
--coupon sale today was super cold and super long! (exhausted)
--math test tomorrow
--spanish quiz tomorrow
--exciting plans for friday!
--i am reading "the Help" (such a great book)!
--yoga has been giving me balance and a focus on jesus every day and night.
--i love listening to Seventh Hour. so refreshing! they have a free remix of "Fragrance" download: http://seventhhour.bandcamp.com/track/fragrance-remix
--juice boxes, windows down, aviators rocking, country music high..life is so good.
my helpers :)
"i think i'm gonna take the yes one"
he said yes!!
a verse that has struck me this weekend: "Wait for the Lord; Be strong and wait for the Lord." --Psalm 27:14
i am thrilled. i am definitely looking forward to the night.
my friends really helped me out by making posters, a t-shirt, ect.
the process and end result was so much fun!
--we made cupcakes and one said yes and one said no.
it was so sweet to hear him say "i am going to take the yes one."
i am very excited.
pictures are below.
events coming//previously happen(ing)(ed):
--ACT was crazy on Saturday!
--i am loving being able to go to the park with my friends and play soccer
--I LOVED THE FIRST THUNDERSTORM OF THE YEAR
--coupon sale today was super cold and super long! (exhausted)
--math test tomorrow
--spanish quiz tomorrow
--exciting plans for friday!
--i am reading "the Help" (such a great book)!
--yoga has been giving me balance and a focus on jesus every day and night.
--i love listening to Seventh Hour. so refreshing! they have a free remix of "Fragrance" download: http://seventhhour.bandcamp.com/track/fragrance-remix
--juice boxes, windows down, aviators rocking, country music high..life is so good.
my helpers :)
"i think i'm gonna take the yes one"
he said yes!!
a verse that has struck me this weekend: "Wait for the Lord; Be strong and wait for the Lord." --Psalm 27:14
4.08.2011
bizzy bee
im just gonna give you an overview of my weekend:
--ACT tomorrow morning @ dunwoody.
--lots of prep & action @ my house during the afternoon : )).
--formal work @ school @ 5.
--ralia game @ 10.
sunday:
--sunday school for 2nd grade @ pcc
--coupon sale for soccer @ 12-6pm
--study study study!
i am going to be so exhausted.
i am leaning on jesus..
for now i am going to do yoga & go to bed.
love and peace
--ACT tomorrow morning @ dunwoody.
--lots of prep & action @ my house during the afternoon : )).
--formal work @ school @ 5.
--ralia game @ 10.
sunday:
--sunday school for 2nd grade @ pcc
--coupon sale for soccer @ 12-6pm
--study study study!
i am going to be so exhausted.
i am leaning on jesus..
for now i am going to do yoga & go to bed.
love and peace
4.06.2011
feeling inspired
Today I am feeling inspired.
The beautiful spring day is making me feel happy inside.
here are some thoughts:
--i am giddy for saturday (yes, giddy--and that is AFTER the ACT to clarify).
--i finished "the Pearl" by john steinbeck today..i really like the story.
--i love painting my nails.
--i love kari jobe's song "you are for me"
--i am ready to drink smoothies, wear shorts, and tan it up.
--i want world peace.
--i want love to dominate.
--i love my guitar, carlitos.
--i cannot believe my birthday is in a month minus 4 days.
--i cannot believe panama mission trip is 2 months minus 2 day.
love and peace.
The beautiful spring day is making me feel happy inside.
here are some thoughts:
--i am giddy for saturday (yes, giddy--and that is AFTER the ACT to clarify).
--i finished "the Pearl" by john steinbeck today..i really like the story.
--i love painting my nails.
--i love kari jobe's song "you are for me"
--i am ready to drink smoothies, wear shorts, and tan it up.
--i want world peace.
--i want love to dominate.
--i love my guitar, carlitos.
--i cannot believe my birthday is in a month minus 4 days.
--i cannot believe panama mission trip is 2 months minus 2 day.
love and peace.
4.05.2011
escape of the grumpy gills
))Read on Rebecca's oj thoughts((
so a grumpy gills i was today..bad bad case of it.
i woke up, ate a wonderful breakfast, drank beautiful coffee and took tests. all. day. long.
and the last test was during a math ACT prep...and wow did it suck. like i have a million nerves for saturday..i do not want to do bad on this test, but my main worry is that i will. i am a horrible test taker, and i always will (on paper that is). if i were to always take tests orally with someone, one on one, i would be acing all of my classes. seriously.
so all of this tension just built up inside of me today..and i came home, and i was grummmmpy. i went down to my room, scattered my stuff, pulled out my bible and fell asleep reading ephesians.
"I ask the Father in his great glory to give you the power to be strong inwardly through his spirit." --Ephesians 3:16
I want to be so strong in his spirit..but the only way to get that power is through abidingtrusting believing seeking loving.
so after all of this i decided i need some endorphins..so i went for a run! felt great. i did not bring my ipod because i talked to God the whole time. a lot of times i enjoy doing this..takes my mind off running, and it gives me time to refresh, renew, and experience God in a different way. i told him the list of things that i wish for the world. i told him that i want to help end world hunger..start world peace..end violence..help everyone to be accepted, no matter what. i gave him my desires..and i told him "you mold them to your desires for me" -- i have come to a point where i need to let go of the things i want to do- and see what he will do with those desires. when i fully SEEK God, i will have all the desires of my heart (because they are new, or old desires that God wants for me). but heres the thing: i have been so conscious in putting in effort to be with God these past few weeks..and it is rocking my world, literally. i mean, i have days where i fall..where i break..but that is all in God's process. i mean even today i snapped at people..i got upset over little things--but that is God still working in me. i am stepping out on deep water...and it's a new thing.
I will leave you guys with that tonight.
Peace.
so a grumpy gills i was today..bad bad case of it.
i woke up, ate a wonderful breakfast, drank beautiful coffee and took tests. all. day. long.
and the last test was during a math ACT prep...and wow did it suck. like i have a million nerves for saturday..i do not want to do bad on this test, but my main worry is that i will. i am a horrible test taker, and i always will (on paper that is). if i were to always take tests orally with someone, one on one, i would be acing all of my classes. seriously.
so all of this tension just built up inside of me today..and i came home, and i was grummmmpy. i went down to my room, scattered my stuff, pulled out my bible and fell asleep reading ephesians.
"I ask the Father in his great glory to give you the power to be strong inwardly through his spirit." --Ephesians 3:16
I want to be so strong in his spirit..but the only way to get that power is through abidingtrusting believing seeking loving.
so after all of this i decided i need some endorphins..so i went for a run! felt great. i did not bring my ipod because i talked to God the whole time. a lot of times i enjoy doing this..takes my mind off running, and it gives me time to refresh, renew, and experience God in a different way. i told him the list of things that i wish for the world. i told him that i want to help end world hunger..start world peace..end violence..help everyone to be accepted, no matter what. i gave him my desires..and i told him "you mold them to your desires for me" -- i have come to a point where i need to let go of the things i want to do- and see what he will do with those desires. when i fully SEEK God, i will have all the desires of my heart (because they are new, or old desires that God wants for me). but heres the thing: i have been so conscious in putting in effort to be with God these past few weeks..and it is rocking my world, literally. i mean, i have days where i fall..where i break..but that is all in God's process. i mean even today i snapped at people..i got upset over little things--but that is God still working in me. i am stepping out on deep water...and it's a new thing.
I will leave you guys with that tonight.
Peace.
4.03.2011
A CRAZY WEEKEND
wow it has been a hectic weekend..and i'm going to tell you all about it.
so on friday i got home from school and i was literally dead. i plopped myself on the couch and took a nap. my parents woke me up and soon enough it was time to go to the peters' house to babysit! i had so much fun with the kiddos. i brought over pastels, paint, markers, and fun sheets to paint on. we had so much fun! i didn't get there until 6:30 and they had to start getting ready for bed by 7:30, in bed by 8. i was so sad, i wanted to hang out with them longer. ashlyn and sam were just dead asleep right away..and madison just could not fall asleep for the longest time. i read a really cute chapter book to her, counted her silly bands (like counting sheep), and just told stories, all for an hour and a half (oopppsss) : ).
i got home pretty late that night and i was pooped, i slept like a baby..except i had to wake up @ 6am.
on saturday, like i said, i got up super early (just like a school day). i went to dundee, and we worked our tails off! by lunch time there were some that left, and some that came. we were notified that we had worked so hard that we only had 45 minutes left (we were supposed to work until 4). so we got let off @ 115. super amazing.
i went home, took a shower, and then met up with some buddies at arbor lakes. we went on little "tours" of places we knew. then went to wild meadows to look at houses, then to noodles, and then we went to emmas to watch the soccer game. and then i played in ralia. it was a good game..but we lost, sadly. i hung out with some friends after the game, and then went home and slept super well.
i woke up @ 915 this morning (the time sunday school starts). i kept my bed head, put on some clothes, dropped my moms book off @ the library and got coffee! it was fun to be with the kiddos this morning. after helping with them i talked to like a million people. so much fun.
then i went to cub and then i got a car wash and then i went home.
i cleaned the whole house, ate some fuel, and went for a run! (felt so so good). then i took a shower and went to lunds to study chemistry.
then i came back home, talked to my parents for a while..took jumping pictures in my bathroom (look below), took another shower, and now i am folding laundry and listening to kara doten to wind down..
tomorrow i am nannying after school and then studying for ACT. cannot believe how much this week holds!! so much to look forward to this weekend : )).
me with madison and ashlyn :)).
tough runner face ; )
same pose...
just the start of the bathroom pictures. hah.
my hair looks like a dollop.
jumping picttahss!
winding down!
love you!
so on friday i got home from school and i was literally dead. i plopped myself on the couch and took a nap. my parents woke me up and soon enough it was time to go to the peters' house to babysit! i had so much fun with the kiddos. i brought over pastels, paint, markers, and fun sheets to paint on. we had so much fun! i didn't get there until 6:30 and they had to start getting ready for bed by 7:30, in bed by 8. i was so sad, i wanted to hang out with them longer. ashlyn and sam were just dead asleep right away..and madison just could not fall asleep for the longest time. i read a really cute chapter book to her, counted her silly bands (like counting sheep), and just told stories, all for an hour and a half (oopppsss) : ).
i got home pretty late that night and i was pooped, i slept like a baby..except i had to wake up @ 6am.
on saturday, like i said, i got up super early (just like a school day). i went to dundee, and we worked our tails off! by lunch time there were some that left, and some that came. we were notified that we had worked so hard that we only had 45 minutes left (we were supposed to work until 4). so we got let off @ 115. super amazing.
i went home, took a shower, and then met up with some buddies at arbor lakes. we went on little "tours" of places we knew. then went to wild meadows to look at houses, then to noodles, and then we went to emmas to watch the soccer game. and then i played in ralia. it was a good game..but we lost, sadly. i hung out with some friends after the game, and then went home and slept super well.
i woke up @ 915 this morning (the time sunday school starts). i kept my bed head, put on some clothes, dropped my moms book off @ the library and got coffee! it was fun to be with the kiddos this morning. after helping with them i talked to like a million people. so much fun.
then i went to cub and then i got a car wash and then i went home.
i cleaned the whole house, ate some fuel, and went for a run! (felt so so good). then i took a shower and went to lunds to study chemistry.
then i came back home, talked to my parents for a while..took jumping pictures in my bathroom (look below), took another shower, and now i am folding laundry and listening to kara doten to wind down..
tomorrow i am nannying after school and then studying for ACT. cannot believe how much this week holds!! so much to look forward to this weekend : )).
me with madison and ashlyn :)).
tough runner face ; )
same pose...
just the start of the bathroom pictures. hah.
my hair looks like a dollop.
jumping picttahss!
winding down!
love you!
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