From thursday morning: I saw a horrific car crash...causing me to be late to class. The front of the car was smashed and I'm not quite sure what happened to the person.
From thursday afternoon: In bible class, Mr. A said these very words... "if you see a pattern of the same thing, God is more than anything else, is telling you something."
I let that hang over my head for the next day..thinking about that quote over and over.
From yesterday morning: My alarm was set for 5:45 because I had to get up early and be at school by seven. At 5:30 i woke up in shock, crying and literally shaking.
I had had a dream that two of my cousins were in my truck..I was driving...and my cousin started to have a seizure on a high speed road, snow banks trapped us on the road, I veered off while I was trying to help him, I hit the snow bank and we did 2 360s in the middle of the air. we landed ok, were all conscious..but I woke up at that moment wondering if that had actually happened. I. Was. So. Scared. I decided to get out of bed...and i was just in shock. all morning.
I got ready, got a muffin, and headed out the door. I sat in the car without turning it on for like 2 minutes...i was literally scared to drive. I finally got the courage to turn on the car and pull out of the driveway.
On my way to school I heard a song which had to do with this: Live like we're dying. I could hardly believe it....It was nuts. I definitely have been reflecting on choosing each moment as if it were my last.
God has definitely been speaking to me in dreams...and I am going to take that to heart. Don't waste the life that has been so freely given to you....it is a life worth living....and there isn't time to waste it.
What is God teaching you?
1.29.2011
1.28.2011
1.24.2011
Maybe it'll impact someone.
I have gotten the same comment, at least once a week, since summer kicked off...and that is "Have you lost weight? You look great!"
At first I actually took it as an offense. Whoa. You are saying that I was "fat"?
Honestly I took it as an offense. I was ashamed, upset and I took it to heart. I completely avoided the fact that the people were considerate, and noticing that I had taken control of my body. Truth is, I have lost some weight. And I am proud of it.
In ninth grade I honestly gained a large amount of weight. I really did. I was eating unhealthy, calorie rich, disgusting food...drinking soda or sugary drinks. Gross.
I honestly held onto that weight throughout the summer before 10th grade...entered soccer, and tore my ACL. The day of the occurence with my knee, they weighed me...and honest to goodness, had some comments about it. They said I was little bit overweight. When I got to prehab (rehab before my surgery....oxymoron) I was weak, unstable and out of shape. At that point of realizing my problem I didn't cry (like I usually would at situations), but I was determined to get up and make a move. When surgery came I would be ready for it and I would honest to goodness give my best. Did I realize what was coming, though? No. I did not realize how hard it was going to be.
Surgery came and surgery went...I was definitely weak that first day. The second day I went back to Tria and they took an x-ray, gave me some feed back and sent me on my way. the third day I went back again and they gave me physical therapy. I couldn't even lift my leg on my own (this is how much muscle memory you lose from surgery). I finally by the end got my leg up by myself, but was very sore.
Every day after I did my physical therapy....and after a week I was so determined I was off my crutches and out of my brace...I wasn't letting that get a hold of me (hey, look how I turned out, right ; )) And I went to pt twice a week...did ALL of my exercies like they told me to....because I was determined. Throughout the whole process I built strength, shed weight, and strove harder. By the middle of Februrary I started to run. I fell in love and I will never go back on my butt again.
I really shed my calories and weight by running and taking the time to make sure my body was getting the physical fitness it needed. I reached a peak and I made it. When I had truly made it, I didn't stop, though, I kept going....I kept up my physical fitness and became who I really was. When I reached that point....that's when I really cried and was thankful for the determination given by the Lord. He was the one who ordained all of this.....without my acl tearing and ripping into pieces I would've never ended up as cautious, lighter, and contentious of my physical fitness and really how those chips and candy bars sent me in a downward spiral.
With my Lord I am free.....free from the shame that I have lived. I have listened to one too many lies....and I am free to start again and work for the good. You have to start somewhere, right?
I hope this will impact someone....but if not anyone, I impacted from writing all this out and realizing how much it has done for the good of my life and health.
Love & PEACE.
At first I actually took it as an offense. Whoa. You are saying that I was "fat"?
Honestly I took it as an offense. I was ashamed, upset and I took it to heart. I completely avoided the fact that the people were considerate, and noticing that I had taken control of my body. Truth is, I have lost some weight. And I am proud of it.
In ninth grade I honestly gained a large amount of weight. I really did. I was eating unhealthy, calorie rich, disgusting food...drinking soda or sugary drinks. Gross.
I honestly held onto that weight throughout the summer before 10th grade...entered soccer, and tore my ACL. The day of the occurence with my knee, they weighed me...and honest to goodness, had some comments about it. They said I was little bit overweight. When I got to prehab (rehab before my surgery....oxymoron) I was weak, unstable and out of shape. At that point of realizing my problem I didn't cry (like I usually would at situations), but I was determined to get up and make a move. When surgery came I would be ready for it and I would honest to goodness give my best. Did I realize what was coming, though? No. I did not realize how hard it was going to be.
Surgery came and surgery went...I was definitely weak that first day. The second day I went back to Tria and they took an x-ray, gave me some feed back and sent me on my way. the third day I went back again and they gave me physical therapy. I couldn't even lift my leg on my own (this is how much muscle memory you lose from surgery). I finally by the end got my leg up by myself, but was very sore.
Every day after I did my physical therapy....and after a week I was so determined I was off my crutches and out of my brace...I wasn't letting that get a hold of me (hey, look how I turned out, right ; )) And I went to pt twice a week...did ALL of my exercies like they told me to....because I was determined. Throughout the whole process I built strength, shed weight, and strove harder. By the middle of Februrary I started to run. I fell in love and I will never go back on my butt again.
I really shed my calories and weight by running and taking the time to make sure my body was getting the physical fitness it needed. I reached a peak and I made it. When I had truly made it, I didn't stop, though, I kept going....I kept up my physical fitness and became who I really was. When I reached that point....that's when I really cried and was thankful for the determination given by the Lord. He was the one who ordained all of this.....without my acl tearing and ripping into pieces I would've never ended up as cautious, lighter, and contentious of my physical fitness and really how those chips and candy bars sent me in a downward spiral.
With my Lord I am free.....free from the shame that I have lived. I have listened to one too many lies....and I am free to start again and work for the good. You have to start somewhere, right?
I hope this will impact someone....but if not anyone, I impacted from writing all this out and realizing how much it has done for the good of my life and health.
Love & PEACE.
1.23.2011
Weekend.
This weekend has definitely been wonderful. On Friday a couple girls and I went and got manicures...went to cub to get food for the party, and then went to our dinner dates. Allie and I ended up at olive garden and had an amazing time. We then, went to providence to watch the boys basketball game and Heritage won! That was so exciting.
Then, Liz needed her car and jake needed to be dropped off, so we went to subway, dropped jake off, and then liz and I made our way to the party. We danced for a good while which was sooo much fun. We then got ready, pulled out our sleeping stuff and pretty much everyone fell asleep during The Proposal : ). I honestly woke up when the credits went off. Of course. We all went to sleep after that. At 10 we went home...and I showered, did yoga,and chillaxxxed for a little bit. I then got a text about tutoring...and I decided that it was too much- I was tired, my car needed an oil change, washer fluid, and I needed to run some errands and be back for babysitting. I went to Holiday, picked up some washer fluid and put it in the truck. Then I went to the bread store, Dunn bros drive thru since I had a coupon : ), and Michaels. Then I came home, got ready, and then soon went to Josie's and babysat for andrew and sam. we had a lot of fun....played some games...they got tired and watched a movie...and then I found out that nicole was babysitting next door so I told her to come over when she got done so I could take her to the game! we then went to her house, picked up her stuff, and then went to our 11pm soccer game. the score was tied for most of the game...and the game ended as a tie. I went home, took a shower, did yoga, and went to bed. I slept until 9:30...drank coffee, did yoga, and had to say good bye to my dad, who is on his way to Asia for the next week and a half. Crazy man. I cleaned a lot of stuff, put my sheets in the dryer, and now I am going to read Jane eyre for like the whole day.
It has been a great weekend.....I love lazy weekends.
Have a blessed day!
Love, R
Then, Liz needed her car and jake needed to be dropped off, so we went to subway, dropped jake off, and then liz and I made our way to the party. We danced for a good while which was sooo much fun. We then got ready, pulled out our sleeping stuff and pretty much everyone fell asleep during The Proposal : ). I honestly woke up when the credits went off. Of course. We all went to sleep after that. At 10 we went home...and I showered, did yoga,and chillaxxxed for a little bit. I then got a text about tutoring...and I decided that it was too much- I was tired, my car needed an oil change, washer fluid, and I needed to run some errands and be back for babysitting. I went to Holiday, picked up some washer fluid and put it in the truck. Then I went to the bread store, Dunn bros drive thru since I had a coupon : ), and Michaels. Then I came home, got ready, and then soon went to Josie's and babysat for andrew and sam. we had a lot of fun....played some games...they got tired and watched a movie...and then I found out that nicole was babysitting next door so I told her to come over when she got done so I could take her to the game! we then went to her house, picked up her stuff, and then went to our 11pm soccer game. the score was tied for most of the game...and the game ended as a tie. I went home, took a shower, did yoga, and went to bed. I slept until 9:30...drank coffee, did yoga, and had to say good bye to my dad, who is on his way to Asia for the next week and a half. Crazy man. I cleaned a lot of stuff, put my sheets in the dryer, and now I am going to read Jane eyre for like the whole day.
It has been a great weekend.....I love lazy weekends.
Have a blessed day!
Love, R
1.17.2011
WATER.
Ever since I read this post: http://godothersself.blogspot.com/2010/03/be-nice-to-your-water.html
I have definitely been inspired. I did NOT realize how much unneeded and harmful things we put into our water... DAILY. I read this post a way while back...I was definitely challenged. This girl is so inspiring.....she doesn't even wash her hair. At first I was taken back..but then I realized...ok well, way back when they didn't have shampoo (or at least like we do now), and our body very well knows how to take care of itself. Our hair can naturally condition itself (and not even appear oily after a few weeks). now, I have not gotten that far in the process...I am slowly getting there. one of my goals is to do that this year....we'll see when I have the courage to have my hair look like an oily mess for 2 weeks.
for now, I shampoo every other day. every day after i shower i use bioinfusion olive oil. this is an all natural shine serum and it is not chemically harmful to our water. Statistics prove that an average person uses 80 to 100 gallons of water per day. no joke. flushing the toliet, tkaing a shower/bath, cleaning dishes (the list goes on)....that made me sick. and then to add that we put so many chemicals and unnatural things when we bathe. i am just going to be another person who will not condone this....our earth is created by the God of the universe....and we need to preserve it as long as we can...destruction is sin.
I am currently using tom's of maine deodorant and toothpaste, too. When I read this post (no joke) I remembered that my mom had gotten this stuff when we had gone to maine over and over again....I always thought the stuff was weird until I read into it. When i found out about the organization changing for the good of preserving- and all natural, I was totally in. my mom had some deodorant stored away and I went and got some tooth paste....feel so good to be another person to contribute.
anyway....i was inspired, and now i am taking action. maybe you're inspired and maybe you're not and that's okay. i just felt compelled to write all this....save the water he gave us!
love, r
I have definitely been inspired. I did NOT realize how much unneeded and harmful things we put into our water... DAILY. I read this post a way while back...I was definitely challenged. This girl is so inspiring.....she doesn't even wash her hair. At first I was taken back..but then I realized...ok well, way back when they didn't have shampoo (or at least like we do now), and our body very well knows how to take care of itself. Our hair can naturally condition itself (and not even appear oily after a few weeks). now, I have not gotten that far in the process...I am slowly getting there. one of my goals is to do that this year....we'll see when I have the courage to have my hair look like an oily mess for 2 weeks.
for now, I shampoo every other day. every day after i shower i use bioinfusion olive oil. this is an all natural shine serum and it is not chemically harmful to our water. Statistics prove that an average person uses 80 to 100 gallons of water per day. no joke. flushing the toliet, tkaing a shower/bath, cleaning dishes (the list goes on)....that made me sick. and then to add that we put so many chemicals and unnatural things when we bathe. i am just going to be another person who will not condone this....our earth is created by the God of the universe....and we need to preserve it as long as we can...destruction is sin.
I am currently using tom's of maine deodorant and toothpaste, too. When I read this post (no joke) I remembered that my mom had gotten this stuff when we had gone to maine over and over again....I always thought the stuff was weird until I read into it. When i found out about the organization changing for the good of preserving- and all natural, I was totally in. my mom had some deodorant stored away and I went and got some tooth paste....feel so good to be another person to contribute.
anyway....i was inspired, and now i am taking action. maybe you're inspired and maybe you're not and that's okay. i just felt compelled to write all this....save the water he gave us!
love, r
p.s.
I had a blast tonight....laying on the couch with liz while jake and kayla worked on the history project. And then eating chili and a million cookies that mrs. haack made :). Then playing in the garage with bogie, graice and harley.
And then to finish off the night...lots of hide and seek in pitch black dark : ).
and also...you suck.
love, me.
And then to finish off the night...lots of hide and seek in pitch black dark : ).
and also...you suck.
love, me.
1.16.2011
Tea, Charlotte Bronte, and ACT work.
Currently, I am at Caribou. Sitting and relaxing...drinking tea, and reading "Jane Eyre" and working in my ACT workbook.
It is a beautiful sunday, ESPECIALLY since we have no school tomorrow. Me = happy.
And soon I am heading over to Jake's and just chill with some great people :).
My dad left this afternoon to go to ORLANDO. He has some meetings and is also going to visit his mom and "dad."
My mom left yesterday morning to go with her sister and my cousin to the cabin. They are coming home late tonight.
I went to Khol's today and got a heck of a deal on a new shirt. Yesterday, at target I got a new vest (only 3 dollars)! I was so ecstatic.
Anyway... here are some pics.
Peace and love.
I love tea!
It is a beautiful sunday, ESPECIALLY since we have no school tomorrow. Me = happy.
And soon I am heading over to Jake's and just chill with some great people :).
My dad left this afternoon to go to ORLANDO. He has some meetings and is also going to visit his mom and "dad."
My mom left yesterday morning to go with her sister and my cousin to the cabin. They are coming home late tonight.
I went to Khol's today and got a heck of a deal on a new shirt. Yesterday, at target I got a new vest (only 3 dollars)! I was so ecstatic.
Anyway... here are some pics.
Peace and love.
1.15.2011
I am a happy camper.
Last night I was exhausted, upset, and ready to be done with the week.
To my advantage, I didn't have babysitting or anything planned to do.
I took that to heart, made some macaroni, read, watched dispicable me, showered, did yoga and was out by 9:20pm.
I had rather weird dreams, and I woke up to my clock alarm (which I forgot to turn off) at 5:55. I turned it off and went back to sleep. My body naturally woke up after 11 hours of sleep ( at 8:20). I turned the coffee pot on and did some yoga, drank some coffee, talked to my mom, and wrote down the things I needed to get at walgreens/target today.
My mom and aunt and cousin just left to go up to our cabin for the weekend (to be honest, I wish I was going and playing in the snow with my 6 yr old cousin), but I have a soccer game tonight and also, I am watching Lindsay swim it up tomorrow morning.
I just ate some oatmeal with a banana, and I am so ready for the day.
It is sunny out, beautiful outside (even though it's a bit chilly), and there is not an error in the day that the Lord has made.
I wish you a magnificent Saturday.
<3r
To my advantage, I didn't have babysitting or anything planned to do.
I took that to heart, made some macaroni, read, watched dispicable me, showered, did yoga and was out by 9:20pm.
I had rather weird dreams, and I woke up to my clock alarm (which I forgot to turn off) at 5:55. I turned it off and went back to sleep. My body naturally woke up after 11 hours of sleep ( at 8:20). I turned the coffee pot on and did some yoga, drank some coffee, talked to my mom, and wrote down the things I needed to get at walgreens/target today.
My mom and aunt and cousin just left to go up to our cabin for the weekend (to be honest, I wish I was going and playing in the snow with my 6 yr old cousin), but I have a soccer game tonight and also, I am watching Lindsay swim it up tomorrow morning.
I just ate some oatmeal with a banana, and I am so ready for the day.
It is sunny out, beautiful outside (even though it's a bit chilly), and there is not an error in the day that the Lord has made.
I wish you a magnificent Saturday.
<3r
1.14.2011
Currents (haven't done these for a while).
//listening to\\ : john mayer
//loving\\ : my friday afternoon consisting of- macaroni, watching despicable me, and reading blogs.
//looking forward to\\ : taking a shower, doing yoga and going to bed early and sleeping for a long time.
//thankful for\\ : amazing friends, people to look up to, a God who LOVES.
//drinking\\ : wa-wa
//mad about\\ : DRAMA
//wanting\\ : a manicure
HAPPY LONG WEEKEND!
<3r
//loving\\ : my friday afternoon consisting of- macaroni, watching despicable me, and reading blogs.
//looking forward to\\ : taking a shower, doing yoga and going to bed early and sleeping for a long time.
//thankful for\\ : amazing friends, people to look up to, a God who LOVES.
//drinking\\ : wa-wa
//mad about\\ : DRAMA
//wanting\\ : a manicure
HAPPY LONG WEEKEND!
<3r
1.10.2011
IF HIS GRACE IS AN OCEAN..........
Most of you would very well know the next line to the song which is my title.... "If His grace is an ocean, WE'RE ALL SINKING."
I seriously love this song. When it first started getting popular, when everyone else was loving it, I actually didn't like it that much. It took a while to ACTUALLY grow on me, and for me to take the time and dig into the meaning of the song.
This year, I actually found out that the original writer to this song isn't David Crowder. Infact, the author is John Mark McMillian. In my bible class, we watched a video of him talking about his intent when writing this song. He first starts talking about the places we use love in..... out of context and things that you can't seriously love. He tells a story.... a friend dying in a car accident, processing things through music: a conversation with God, a love that puts up with messy....dirty.....gross things....like us. We get angry at God...just like this man....we are gross and mucked up in our sin and weakness...we have points of failure. We are nasty human beings...did you know that?
I take such joy in knowing that there is someone, perfect, that still loves me.....
I mean a perfect love. Nothing conditional.... and that's really what this is all about. Even when we're in the midst of our inequities he still reaches out and gives us LOVE.
Going back to the image of His grace as an ocean..... this is honestly my favorite line of the whole song. I just see people drenched with grace....as they would be with an ocean overflowing our town....nation...world. We're truly sinking in grace. We're walking with grace. We're going about life with grace....
Peace out.
I seriously love this song. When it first started getting popular, when everyone else was loving it, I actually didn't like it that much. It took a while to ACTUALLY grow on me, and for me to take the time and dig into the meaning of the song.
This year, I actually found out that the original writer to this song isn't David Crowder. Infact, the author is John Mark McMillian. In my bible class, we watched a video of him talking about his intent when writing this song. He first starts talking about the places we use love in..... out of context and things that you can't seriously love. He tells a story.... a friend dying in a car accident, processing things through music: a conversation with God, a love that puts up with messy....dirty.....gross things....like us. We get angry at God...just like this man....we are gross and mucked up in our sin and weakness...we have points of failure. We are nasty human beings...did you know that?
I take such joy in knowing that there is someone, perfect, that still loves me.....
I mean a perfect love. Nothing conditional.... and that's really what this is all about. Even when we're in the midst of our inequities he still reaches out and gives us LOVE.
Going back to the image of His grace as an ocean..... this is honestly my favorite line of the whole song. I just see people drenched with grace....as they would be with an ocean overflowing our town....nation...world. We're truly sinking in grace. We're walking with grace. We're going about life with grace....
Peace out.
1.08.2011
It's not about me.
One of my amazing friends came up with this amazing idea.... Prayer 24. For all 24 hours of the day there is someone constantly, and willingly praying. I am praying from 1pm to 2pm this afternoon. I am excited to pray for those who are hurting.... those who need help, and those that I don't even know. Even though praying for an hour straight seems like a long time, there is a lot to pray about... there is a hurting world out there you know.
I want to say, though, that I have been learning something. It's all about me. "God I need this, God I need that..." 1) Do I really need it? or do I just want it? and where's the prayer for others? That can change the world. We're taking a powerful thing and blowing it out of proportion. What has happened for praying for others? And being selfless?
Don't take this as you're never supposed to pray for yourself, because that's important, too... but sometimes I feel that's all we limit ourselves to. We always tell others we'll pray for them... do we actually follow through?
I think we need to pray for others, seek others out and make sure that they are being cared for and loved on.
That is our calling from Christ... discipleship and comforting others through Him.
I'm going to drink some tea, eat some lunch and pray for an hour : ).
<3R
I want to say, though, that I have been learning something. It's all about me. "God I need this, God I need that..." 1) Do I really need it? or do I just want it? and where's the prayer for others? That can change the world. We're taking a powerful thing and blowing it out of proportion. What has happened for praying for others? And being selfless?
Don't take this as you're never supposed to pray for yourself, because that's important, too... but sometimes I feel that's all we limit ourselves to. We always tell others we'll pray for them... do we actually follow through?
I think we need to pray for others, seek others out and make sure that they are being cared for and loved on.
That is our calling from Christ... discipleship and comforting others through Him.
I'm going to drink some tea, eat some lunch and pray for an hour : ).
<3R
1.03.2011
Confused?
The chaos and demands this life has to offer is not alluring and exhausting. Feeling confused and alone are complications that seem to never end. There seems to be no hope out of the spiral of chaos. I have definitely been learning a lot this past school year, and it has changed my outlook on many things.... If I had to take a few key things that I have been learning this year (last year, too), they would be:
*It's okay to cry. Crying is therapy. When you stuff all of those hopeless, harsh, broken feelings inside for so long they need to come out. Demands, relationships, chaos, homework and confusion arouse these emotions. A few tissues, chocolate, and crying can do a girl a major fix!!
Some days I will come home, scatter my bag, purse, keys, ect across the floor and counter, plop myself down at the counter, drink some water, dig out some chocolate and vent to my mom. Seriously, without crying and venting this one over here would be a mess. Also, I have amazing friends.... beyond amazing. I have been blessed. Do they care when I cry? Heck no. They are so supportive... seriously.
*My plans are not His. I have had my share of waking up late,desperately trying to make myself look perfect, getting the coffee brewed, grabbing a granola bar and pulling out of the drive way with 10 minutes until go time. Every one of those times my mom opens the garage door and makes me pull down my window to tell me, "Don't rush, you'll get there when you get there." I am seriously blessed. I start driving and find myself in this thankful state of mind. I find those little things to be thankful for... and before I know it I am having a great day. God seriously shows himself when you are broken... if you let Him. God wants me to see him in those moments I am broken and helpless.
*We. Need. Down. Time.
I have definitely experienced the life without down time this year. Not a good idea.
I get stressed, irritable, and unpleasant to be around. I need time to breathe. I need time to read and rejuvenate. With school, and kids demanding at my side all the time, I easily get bogged down. It doesn't take much. I need my time alone. I need that recuperation stage, that we all are so quick to ignore. The sabbath is a day to rest.
I am not here to say that I have it all figured out.... because I don't. I am still easily broken and in need of my Savior. I will always be that way. My reason for posting this is to let you know that you are alone.... with others. Numerous people get their minds wrapped around the thought of "I am alone in these feelings.... I am a mess, wreck, and undesirable." Especially women. Our minds are so delicate and precious that they can easily be destroyed in these evil thoughts... truthfully, we are not alone. I am not alone. You are not alone. We are all hazed and confused at points in our lives..... and they are building blocks for whatever reason I don't quite have figured out yet.
So maybe you're dazed in the confusion of life or maybe you're just confused from reading this post.... you're not alone, though.
<3R
*It's okay to cry. Crying is therapy. When you stuff all of those hopeless, harsh, broken feelings inside for so long they need to come out. Demands, relationships, chaos, homework and confusion arouse these emotions. A few tissues, chocolate, and crying can do a girl a major fix!!
Some days I will come home, scatter my bag, purse, keys, ect across the floor and counter, plop myself down at the counter, drink some water, dig out some chocolate and vent to my mom. Seriously, without crying and venting this one over here would be a mess. Also, I have amazing friends.... beyond amazing. I have been blessed. Do they care when I cry? Heck no. They are so supportive... seriously.
*My plans are not His. I have had my share of waking up late,desperately trying to make myself look perfect, getting the coffee brewed, grabbing a granola bar and pulling out of the drive way with 10 minutes until go time. Every one of those times my mom opens the garage door and makes me pull down my window to tell me, "Don't rush, you'll get there when you get there." I am seriously blessed. I start driving and find myself in this thankful state of mind. I find those little things to be thankful for... and before I know it I am having a great day. God seriously shows himself when you are broken... if you let Him. God wants me to see him in those moments I am broken and helpless.
*We. Need. Down. Time.
I have definitely experienced the life without down time this year. Not a good idea.
I get stressed, irritable, and unpleasant to be around. I need time to breathe. I need time to read and rejuvenate. With school, and kids demanding at my side all the time, I easily get bogged down. It doesn't take much. I need my time alone. I need that recuperation stage, that we all are so quick to ignore. The sabbath is a day to rest.
I am not here to say that I have it all figured out.... because I don't. I am still easily broken and in need of my Savior. I will always be that way. My reason for posting this is to let you know that you are alone.... with others. Numerous people get their minds wrapped around the thought of "I am alone in these feelings.... I am a mess, wreck, and undesirable." Especially women. Our minds are so delicate and precious that they can easily be destroyed in these evil thoughts... truthfully, we are not alone. I am not alone. You are not alone. We are all hazed and confused at points in our lives..... and they are building blocks for whatever reason I don't quite have figured out yet.
So maybe you're dazed in the confusion of life or maybe you're just confused from reading this post.... you're not alone, though.
<3R
1.01.2011
Escaping into something new.
Like I said in my last post I get crabby and irritated when I don't work out. Exactly the story of my life. I was so pumped after I ran tonight... then I took a delightful bath and I am cured people. Cured of all this crabbiness. I think I need to do this way more often. No more cranky business I don't like that.
Vanilla Northern Lite lattes also make me happy : ).
So do reading magazines.
Love love love you, running.
LOVEEE & PEEEACE
Vanilla Northern Lite lattes also make me happy : ).
So do reading magazines.
Love love love you, running.
LOVEEE & PEEEACE
Wrapping up break (unfortunately).
Hello all fellow blog readers,
I realize it has been a few days since I have caught you up to speed with my life.
Break has literally been amazing.
Sleep.
Kids.
Friends.
Coffee (and enjoying it).
Reading magazines.
New clothes.
FAmily.
Snowboarding.
ECT.
On Thursday, I had an amazing skype date with alyssa, spilled coffee on my matress, and did some cleaning. Then, I ran some errands with Kate- and then picked up some bou @ the Lunds by the Foty house... got some magazines, and headed over there. Kate tutored sun in math while I did all my chem work. Then Sunni and I finished up our english lesson from Tuesday, and then we had a movie//pamper nite.
We waxed our hands and did nails! too fun.
Did I mention pizza, too? This is the 3rd consecutive day I have had pizza. Uff da.
Yesterday I went for a 3 mile run. FELT AMAZING. I hadn't run in weeks.... I was literally a crab apple, and needed some endorphins. A nice run is the escape of a crabby daughter//sister//friend. Then Kate and I went over to the OC house and babysat! so much stinkin fun with those kiddos. Cully ran up and hugged us when we walked in.... also to which kate and I just walked on in the door announcing "We're home!!!!" and then nolly gave us hugs along with stace and gavy later. love that fam fam. Stace and mike went to the wild game with the galloways and johansens and we hung out with the kids, ate pizza, played tons of games, danced to music, played airplanes, ect (and I also cut inside my mouth.... hahahah). Kate and I left around 10ish and went to emmas house for the new yrs party and slept over! We played catch phrase, and then some of us played spoons until the boll dropped.
The boys soon left, and the all the girls went into the hot tub and played kiss kill marry. we talked forever, ate a bunch of food, emma and i went into her house to pee a million times, and i took a nappie, woke up and finally went to real sleep at like 5.
Today, kate and I came back home. I got ready for the day... only to find our internet was down, and my dad is in owatanna for his new years day party he always goes to to watch all the football bowls. so em and i decided to go to the bou and study a little, go to target, and then came home. and now i am taking it easy. i am going to run, take a bath, clean a little, go to bed and go to church tomorrow & then watch Ashley's speeches : ).
Hand waxing!
Making ice cream with their new blizzard maker!
Studly.
Nolly loved when Kate and I kissed him.
Pizzzaaaa!!! I was constantly hungry.
Definitely rock star babysitters right here : ).
I realize it has been a few days since I have caught you up to speed with my life.
Break has literally been amazing.
Sleep.
Kids.
Friends.
Coffee (and enjoying it).
Reading magazines.
New clothes.
FAmily.
Snowboarding.
ECT.
On Thursday, I had an amazing skype date with alyssa, spilled coffee on my matress, and did some cleaning. Then, I ran some errands with Kate- and then picked up some bou @ the Lunds by the Foty house... got some magazines, and headed over there. Kate tutored sun in math while I did all my chem work. Then Sunni and I finished up our english lesson from Tuesday, and then we had a movie//pamper nite.
We waxed our hands and did nails! too fun.
Did I mention pizza, too? This is the 3rd consecutive day I have had pizza. Uff da.
Yesterday I went for a 3 mile run. FELT AMAZING. I hadn't run in weeks.... I was literally a crab apple, and needed some endorphins. A nice run is the escape of a crabby daughter//sister//friend. Then Kate and I went over to the OC house and babysat! so much stinkin fun with those kiddos. Cully ran up and hugged us when we walked in.... also to which kate and I just walked on in the door announcing "We're home!!!!" and then nolly gave us hugs along with stace and gavy later. love that fam fam. Stace and mike went to the wild game with the galloways and johansens and we hung out with the kids, ate pizza, played tons of games, danced to music, played airplanes, ect (and I also cut inside my mouth.... hahahah). Kate and I left around 10ish and went to emmas house for the new yrs party and slept over! We played catch phrase, and then some of us played spoons until the boll dropped.
The boys soon left, and the all the girls went into the hot tub and played kiss kill marry. we talked forever, ate a bunch of food, emma and i went into her house to pee a million times, and i took a nappie, woke up and finally went to real sleep at like 5.
Today, kate and I came back home. I got ready for the day... only to find our internet was down, and my dad is in owatanna for his new years day party he always goes to to watch all the football bowls. so em and i decided to go to the bou and study a little, go to target, and then came home. and now i am taking it easy. i am going to run, take a bath, clean a little, go to bed and go to church tomorrow & then watch Ashley's speeches : ).
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