Confused?

The chaos and demands this life has to offer is not alluring and exhausting. Feeling confused and alone are complications that seem to never end. There seems to be no hope out of the spiral of chaos. I have definitely been learning a lot this past school year, and it has changed my outlook on many things.... If I had to take a few key things that I have been learning this year (last year, too), they would be:

*It's okay to cry. Crying is therapy. When you stuff all of those hopeless, harsh, broken feelings inside for so long they need to come out. Demands, relationships, chaos, homework and confusion arouse these emotions. A few tissues, chocolate, and crying can do a girl a major fix!!
Some days I will come home, scatter my bag, purse, keys, ect across the floor and counter, plop myself down at the counter, drink some water, dig out some chocolate and vent to my mom. Seriously, without crying and venting this one over here would be a mess. Also, I have amazing friends.... beyond amazing. I have been blessed. Do they care when I cry? Heck no. They are so supportive... seriously.

*My plans are not His. I have had my share of waking up late,desperately trying to make myself look perfect, getting the coffee brewed, grabbing a granola bar and pulling out of the drive way with 10 minutes until go time. Every one of those times my mom opens the garage door and makes me pull down my window to tell me, "Don't rush, you'll get there when you get there." I am seriously blessed. I start driving and find myself in this thankful state of mind. I find those little things to be thankful for... and before I know it I am having a great day. God seriously shows himself when you are broken... if you let Him. God wants me to see him in those moments I am broken and helpless.

*We. Need. Down. Time.
I have definitely experienced the life without down time this year. Not a good idea.
I get stressed, irritable, and unpleasant to be around. I need time to breathe. I need time to read and rejuvenate. With school, and kids demanding at my side all the time, I easily get bogged down. It doesn't take much. I need my time alone. I need that recuperation stage, that we all are so quick to ignore. The sabbath is a day to rest.

I am not here to say that I have it all figured out.... because I don't. I am still easily broken and in need of my Savior. I will always be that way. My reason for posting this is to let you know that you are alone.... with others. Numerous people get their minds wrapped around the thought of "I am alone in these feelings.... I am a mess, wreck, and undesirable." Especially women. Our minds are so delicate and precious that they can easily be destroyed in these evil thoughts... truthfully, we are not alone. I am not alone. You are not alone. We are all hazed and confused at points in our lives..... and they are building blocks for whatever reason I don't quite have figured out yet.

So maybe you're dazed in the confusion of life or maybe you're just confused from reading this post.... you're not alone, though.
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