3.06.2011

peace

"Turn from evil and do good; seek PEACE and pursue it."
--Psalm 34:14

you wonder why I have such a "promoting peace" mindset?
One week. Seven days. 168 hours. 10,080 minutes. 604,800 seconds.
That is how close I am to being in paradise.
I am so so excited. It is actually not too far off considering the time I will be leaving next sunday morning.

<3 you!

3.03.2011

study study study!

I am drinking some decaf and studying! wish me luck on my chemistry test!

3.02.2011

make some memories..

i was reading a magazine yesterday...and i was reading this very intriguing article about making memories. it said that people who spend money on an experience RATHER than stuff enjoy more of life--and feel more satisfied with their purchase.
making memories are what piece life together. if we just bought things all the time would we be happy? not really. even if we buy things with people we love, does that thing really last?
i am always willing to pay for a breakfast, a coffee date, a trip, a road trip...something where i get to spend quality time with people. an experience. you pay for something you can't buy. you can't go to a store and buy an experience...an experience is about the people you're with...not how much it costs. an experience is something of a lifetime.

speaking of which....a week from Sunday...I will definitely be having an experience. Viva Waikiki Beach!!!!

shout out

dear a clary,
i miss you like a lot.
please call me or skype me.
love, rebecca c

3.01.2011

oops..

well i just realized after posting that, that many of you are unfamiliar with panic/anxiety attacks. A panic attack is a period of time when you feel out of control, your heart rate is rapidly increased, you sweat like crazy, your stomach hurts, your head hurts, your breath is short, you feel claustrophobic, you can’t get away… ect. I always told my mom when I was little that "I don't feel like i'm here right now." I could not get my mind away from it. It was the weirdest, scariest thing I was experiencing.

I have suffered from panic attacks since I was in the fifth grade.

I was greatly ashamed to admit this truth about myself for years. I seriously brought myself to believe I was the only one who suffered from these. These attacks got so bad I would have to lay down and stay there for sometimes even hours at a time until I felt normal again. It was terrible. It explained my periods of depression and obsessions.

In ninth grade I was still ashamed of my condition, and still had belief that I was the only one. The only one. I was in my HPW class--and Mrs. Felix came up and talked to our class. She talked about panic attacks. My face seriously dropped when she started explaining how she felt...I could hardly believe it. Someone actually had felt the same way I was feeling. I went home that day in utter joy and told my mom that someone had actually felt my attacks!
I now elementary assist for her and I love it. She is so amazing...a wonderful woman inside and out!

I have not gone through a panic attack in over a year. I think the last time I had one was over Christmas break of last year. Amazing.
Through running and doing lots of yoga lately, I have forced myself to do deep breathing, keeping those mean attacks AWAY.
All of this to say I hope you've learned a little about something that isn't so well known. You also learned something about me today... : )
peace out girl scouts

rebe learns something new...

did you know that people who suffer from anxiety disorders or depression are shallow breathers through their diaphragm? Breathing deeply through yoga or running can encourage them to feel better. it all makes sense why people tell you to breathe deeply when you're worried...

it also makes sense why i haven't had an anxiety attack in over a year..i have been running on a regular basis and also doing lots of yoga. i am so happy to know this!